Observations on Becoming

Full Moon- Working and My Subconscious

2012-01-09T18:20:00.004-05:00

Full Moon=harvest,wholeness,enlightenment and illumination.

When my mother (you should really follow that link and watch the video, it ties in hugely with this post- and it was filmed on my bed :) first told me that I'd need to get a job when I finished high school, I was devastated. It was devastating for both of us, because it wasn't part of our plans. We believe in entrepreneurship. I have already made money from my photography business, and I'd previously dismissed the idea of having to get a job. Perhaps that was an unrealistic expectation for my situation-my parent's can't entirely support my business, and I need money for it to grow and even to become more financially independent.

Have you ever been faced with a reality you didn't want to accept, and yet knew you must? Have you ever felt deep down (deeeeeeeep doooooooooown) that it was the right thing anyway, and for the best?

I've had to accept and embrace this reality- and it's been a long, slow burning, and deep process. Not only cause I didn't want to get a job, but because it brought up a lot of questions-and insecurities.

Does this mean everything I did before is worthless?
Have I failed myself, my own expectations?
Am I going against my own personal values and principals?
What are other people going to think or say?
What if I make a mistake?
What if this is the wrong path?
What is it that I really want to do?
WHAT DOES THIS MEAN!?

It's amazing how such a practical area of life can be so connected to you, inside. Because everything we do is connected in some way to us. (Truth&Belief)
I had to accept this challenge of course. I had to change my perspective majorly. To see it as a step towards fulfilling my true hopes and goals, and as an opportunity rather than a hinderance has been much more difficult than I could have imagined.
After many recent talks with me mum, who's amazing and awesome and knows me so well, all these negative emotions- all this fear and resistance I had- came to surface. And I still didn't want to face it. To deal with it. I'm sure you know how that feels-on a smaller scale, it's like not wanting to face that dirty sink. Oh dear, it's so much like that.

observations of the universe (astrology)...

Finally, as the Full Moon in Cancer(sign of the moon, home, family, coziness,nostalgia, mood swings...) approached (it was last night in the East Coast), my feelings (the moon is about emotions) came to surface- and this time, I had to deal with them. I actually wanted to. I was tired of resisting and being miserable whenever the word "job" was mentioned. This Full Moon took place in my astrological twelfth house of the subconscious, of self defeating behaviors, of spiritual connection and dreams.
I was definitely engaging in a self defeating behavior concerning getting a job. But when the sky(aka Hashem aka Gd) placed emphasis on this house, and therefore on the opposite house-the 6th, (that has to do with work and service and daily life) where the Sun is currently (in Capricorn, the sign of maturity, career, ambition, and more hard work)- it all came to a culmination of sorts. I was ready- I am ready to let go of the self defeating emotions and behaviors.

Yes, it's still scary, I'm still afraid, and it'll continue to be a process (what isn't?! Cause I'd like to join that club). But I'm going to change my perspective, I'm going to open myself to opportunity, and I'm not going to run and hide anymore. I'm going to do it afraid.

"Courage is not the absence of fear. It is acting in spite of it."~Mark Twain

Blessings!
p.s- You may have noticed that I've mentioned astrology before- it's become a passion of mine! I'm constantly learning more about it. I'm sure some of you may have no idea, or a negative perception of astrology, and I think I may do a post explaining my perspective on it in the near future. Meanwhile, feel absolutely free to ask ANY questions! I'm open to honest questions if you're open to honest answers. :D

Village Wise Woman: The Rose Bush Who Wouldn't Bloom (A Real Life Parable)

2012-01-08T20:30:00.000-05:00

Village Wise Woman: The Rose Bush Who Wouldn't Bloom (A Real Life Parable)

Beautiful! Take the time to read, my dear young ladies!

Grace Like Rain: dream room

2011-12-27T19:01:00.000-05:00

Seriously awesome.....I'm so with Em...

Grace Like Rain: dream room: I have a dream room. Color . Light. ...

Moments&Memories: Psych

2011-12-01T12:30:00.000-05:00

I thought I'd try this sublime meme, it'd be good to realize the special moments each week. :)

There have been quite a few memorable moments this week. However, the one that stands out to me the most is yesterday night, when my brother and I joined in the living room to watch the new weekly episode of Psych. One of my dear friends introduced me to Psych, (as she's introduced me to so many awesome things) and unlike many other things I've shared with my brother without peaking his interest, Psych has become a joint excited entertainment for us. Something that brings us together and makes us laugh and gasp. Well, I gasp, he sits there in his airy coolness. ;p Anyway, last night I realized and appreciated the time with my brother. Shared interest's really help to bring two people who are very different together. And as my brother and I get older, I appreciate him more and more.
Sometimes I become afraid that I'll miss out on an awesome relationship with my brother, as the days speed by. Sometimes I feel guilty for not being a better older sister, and being more encouraging and such. Then I remember that as long as I try to do my best, be my best, it'll be alright. But I forget so often. Do you ever feel guilty because you forget to put some focus on the important things in life?

At least we try to remember...

In case I've dampened your spirits, watch this video. And maybe watch Psych! :D They have it on Netflix.

Top Ten Books on my To Be Read (or re-read) list for Winter

2011-11-29T23:17:00.000-05:00

The Broke and the Bookish

Oliver Twist by Charles Dickens: I just love that name. But I suppose a lot of people do. It's original and cute. Anyway, not here to talk about another name I'd assign to a future cat. I begun reading this book on my iBooks app sometime this year, and I want to finish it this winter. We're going on vacation in less than two weeks and I'm hoping to do a lot of reading! But I might get stuck reading...
The Pickwick Paper's by Charles Dickens: Yes, Dickens is for winter. I want to re-read this book, which I've raved about previously here . The first and only time I read it, it was in a fortnight. That's how intrigued I was. Anyway, I'm really looking forward to laughing my head off and rebuilding my vocabulary again.
Little Women by Louisa May Alcott: I said to a friend yesterday that one of the advantages of not having easy access to a library is that you can re-read your own books as many times as you want; and no one can accuse you of avoiding new material. Not that I want to avoid new material anyway. I really do want to get to the library...why do I keep going off? Yes, Little Women- I was originally planning to re-read it this month, November seemed so suitable. But November has slipped away along with my little, casual attempt at NANOWRIMO, and so I 'm bringing this book with me on vacation as well. It's just such a cozy read!
The Lamplighter by Maria Cummins: If I had lots of dedicated followers who've read every single one of my posts, I'd be afraid that you're tired of my mention of this book. But yeah, it's awesome. Makes me cry every time, it's nostalgic, excellent plot, great...just everything. And it's a romance, a mystery, and some other genres. Always on my winter re-read list, unconsciously. :)
An Old Fashioned Girl by Louisa May Alcott: This book is up there with Little Women for me. It may be dull and boring to some, but I find it absolutely charming and even encouraging. I can't wait to read this with the little book club I have with my two younger cousins. (If anyone's interested in reading an eleven year old's perspective on our current reads, click here and follow :)
Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte: I saw the 2011 movie adaptation. First word that comes to mind is-lame. It was less than any other adaptation I've seen or heard of, and the only interesting thing was the change up of the show of timeline. Then I watched what I call my version, the 2006 one. Which is awesome. Anyway, I need to refresh my memory to do a proper mental movie and book re-analysis. Did you say nerd?
Agatha Christie: I would like to read and re-read some Agatha Christie books. I've read the Tommy&Tuppence series, and loved it. It combined my love for the old-fashioned with my new experience of mysteries.
The Time Machine by H.G Wells: I started reading this (I must state how uncharacteristic it is of me to not finish things... but when it comes to reading electronic books or uninitiated self help....) I have no idea when, but should finish it this winter. Should. Do I want to? Yes. I've heard it's interesting and rather creepy. That intrigues me. Do I really want to? I have no idea.
The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams: A friend of mine will be giving me the audiobooks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've longed to read this for so long, but could not obtain a copy. I'm excited. Yay. This is more on my "instant inhale" list....
Walden and Civil Disobedience by Henry David Thoreau: Thank goodness I have an available paperback. I have a feeling this may end up being read near spring...but we'll see. We briefly went over this in my English class of Senior year, and I decided to read it in entirety. Some decisions need time for action..eh?

I actually made it to 10...can you believe it....
Hope this was interesting.... or that you had another person or something nearby to keep you from falling into a coma...

Dear Society & Boys,

2011-11-27T01:23:00.001-05:00

Who are you Society? Well, you're me. You're the next door neighbor. You're that blogger girl I follow. You're that one person I met. We are society. I have the power to send out a message.They have the power to send out a message. Whether it's to friends and family and people in their life, or to the world at large via social media. I mean, without people, there'd be no society. So how do we fight you, Society? The standards, the bar, the ruler, the influence, the pressure? I think we should change. You know, us little people that are apparently separate from the world at large. We should change our perspectives, we should get the message out there as persistently and consistently and as powerfully as social media does. Tell our friends. Tell our family. Tell that one blogger girl and the next door neighbor. That they are beautiful and perfectly imperfect just the way they are, and that no one can define them and...so much more. Live it and love it and show it until we become what people refer to as "society". Humanity is bigger than it's problems. At least for now...

Oh boys. You boys. You fascinating creatures. Please, please, discover a mission to occupy yourself with until you seriously want to get into a serious relationship to enter a serious marriage. Otherwise, it's just playing around, and though you may try to hide it, your hearts are as fragile as ours and we must guard and protect each others hearts. Brothers and sisters, we are the next generation. Let's make a strong, healthy one.

This post was inspired by Cupcake Dictionary's post. :)

<3

Truth & Belief

2011-11-18T16:44:00.000-05:00

Something has happened in the blogging world, a small part of it, the one I circulate in. It was undoubtedly in formulation for quite a while before I disengaged from blogging (due to life), and I wasn't surprised to see it had birthed upon my return.
I want to make one thing clear: this is no one's fault. We must each take accountability for our own implementation or submission to pressure or negative thoughts. And: It's a deeper, more personal problem then it appears to be.

Everyone has their own style of bloggging, that's the entire point. It's a way to express yourself and share with others in many different ways, should you choose. But, as is inevitable, some blog's are more "popular" than others, and this is often attributed to the way that they write, style their blog and posts, and the list is endless. Naturally, some other bloggers may feel a type of "peer pressure". That being said, I'm not here to write about the competition and the bitterness that's cropping up. I'm here to write about the heart of the matter. It's something not only in the blogging atmosphere, but in each and everyone of our lives. No doubt.

"Well, I don't write like that. Is my writing good enough?"
"I don't make my posts like that-they don't look as good. What if people are bored and dislike my style?"
"My blog design is not that pretty or updated. In fact, it looks ugly compared."
"Nothing interesting happpens in my life. What I write about is of no importance."
"My blog isn't good enough. My writing isn't good enough. What's the point? What's the purpose?"
"I'm not important enough to have a blog."

Contrasting.Comparative analysis.
What does this mean?

You may be comparing yourself to others. You may be contrasting yourself to others. Consciously or unconsciously. From self worth to the clothes you wear. From your spiritual life to your daily circumstances.

This is sad. This is true.

The sad truth is that the truth is sad. ~Lemony Snicket

Who are you?
Are you so insignificant that you must gain your self worth from comparing yourself to others as if you are more important or better than them?
Are you so insignificant that you must diminish your self worth by contrasting yourself to others as if you are unimportant or less than?

Truth. The truth will set you free.

You are a being filled to the brim with heavenly light and potential. Beauty. Strength. Power. Love.
You are no more than the next person.
You are no less.

We are or are not what we allow and accept ourselves to be. That's where it begins and where it ends. No one else has the power to set our self worth for us.

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.~Eleanor Roosevelt

Comparing and contrasting is usually not just that.
It stems from something deeper.
A belief that you are not enough.
You are not enough.
How incomprehensible.
Is this being ungrateful?
For all He has given us. For all He has birthed in us. For all He has created us to be. For all that we are.
It is all about what you believe.
That's where it begins and that is where it ends.

What do you believe?

Miscellany Monday: Purpose and the Phoenix

2011-11-07T15:59:00.000-05:00

I can't believe it's been more than a month already! October passed in a sort of mist for me, and November is rapidly skipping along. I'm trying to hold on to my sanity while random duties and pleasures surround me, while "bigger" responsibilities and plans, like getting a job, burn in the back of my mind, waiting for action to set the energy into motion.I feel like I need to post, but organizing my thoughts has been my issue this month! So I'm joining in this meme to make it easier and give me a good excuse to ramble randomly. ;)

What with nothing and something, I still haven't got my driving permit that I studied for 3 years ago. I never really minded because I didn't think it was that important, I didn't really want to get my permit. But recently, some circumstances that could've been alleviated by my ability to drive initiated the urge in me to get my permit as soon as humanly possible. With this additional fire burning in the back of my mind, I was resigned to waiting again, for finances and the right time. Then, without any expectation or even a vague idea, an aunt of mine with whom I've hardly had any contact, sent me a letter with $30, almost precisely the amount I need for my permit. I'm sharing this with whomever reads this so that you may see and be encouraged by how HaShem works on your behalf. :)

By the way I talk about getting my permit, it sounds almost like a life or death situation. :p Being the type of person I am, a Scorpio astrologically, most of the time I need to really want something, or be passionate about it, to act on it. Otherwise I can be indifferent about it, as I was about getting my permit. Knowing this about myself, I know that I have to find inspiration and motivation within my daily life to keep me from becoming indifferent or feeling purposeless when it becomes mundane. While waiting to get a job and for my parent's to take me to fill out applications and such, I sometimes struggle to keep in mind that what I'm doing at home, though not monumental, is still important. I believe in the home and family life, and in being an entrepreneur. While I need to get a job, temporarily, I need to remember that that is not the purpose of my life or my fulfillment and what not.

Whatever I'm doing right now is my life. I am fulfilling my purpose everyday. I am doing what He intended for me to do. I haven't missed my purpose. I'm not waiting for something to come along and give me a mission. Everyday, choosing to love, choosing to live, and choosing to be a light-that is my mission. And however that happens is how it was meant to be. I don't need to invent new ways to do it. Take what you have, be grateful, and do your best with it.

I'm 18 now! So old! I ordered myself a wheelchair as I've been planning to do for years, because I'm quite feeble now. ;) I'm not into the whole, "You're an adult now!". Age is just a number, I've been disillusioned into believing. Nevertheless, it is rather significant in material ways. I can vote, I can order things on those commercials that say "18 or older to order", and I can do other independent shenanigans. It's quite odd really.
I've begun a new journal-I'm attempting to keep to a tradition of completing one and beginning a new one each birthday, which didn't really work out this year. But anyway, it's giving me a reason to really formulate into words some desires and intention I have for this year.

Ultimately, my desire is to continue on the lifetime journey of personifying the Phoenix, the mythical creature that is the highest symbol of the Scorpio, astrologically.

The Phoenix is a bird, a bird of fire, that bursts into flames at the "end" of it's life, and is reborn from the ashes once again. It's symbolic of the cycle of life-death and rebirth, which is what the Scorpio is all about. This was enlightening to me because it explained why I often feel as if I have "past selves", whether from my childhood or even my teenage years, I go through cycles of rebirth and feel like a different person, yet the same, just like the Phoenix.

To rid myself of ego, of self, and yet to be empowered in the love and light that HaShem has implanted in me, is one of my deepest and most prevalent desires this year. And I hope the same for all of you. :)
I would like to share this quote which I wrote on an entire page of my new journal.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves,
"Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented,fabulous?"
Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of Gd.Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of Gd that is within us.
It's not just in some of us;it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
~Marianne Williamson

Blessings!

Top Ten Tuesday: Books I Wish I could Read again for the First Time

2011-10-11T19:22:00.000-04:00

Hello! It's been a while! I'm back now, and thought I'd do today's Top Ten while I conjure up some personal bookish posts I want to do :)
Hosted by The Broke and the Bookish, Top Ten Tuesday is a really fun meme with a different topic every time!This week is a really good one, which I think I can come up with 10 to!

Anne of Green Gables by Lucy Maud Montgomery. I automatically thought of this one, because I recently re-read it and it was like-probably better-than the first time. Such a refreshing series! I highly recommend it. Absolutely delightful. For those who don't know, it's about an orphan girl who "accidentally" gets adopted by a middle aged brother and sister, and her experiences and growth. Poor summary, but there it is.
The Lamplighter by Maria Cummins. I've mentioned this book before, I'm sure, because I absolutely adore it. I loved it from the time my mother read the first words aloud. Every time I read it, it's like the first time so I don't know if it counts...but it's certainly relevant :) About another orphan girl, rescued from almost absolute death and a terrible existence by an old lamp-lighter, and her life-full of such unexpected twists and turns. Absolutely lovely :)
Emma by Jane Austen. This I sincerely wish I could read for the first time again. I've read it several times, but the first time was so delightful, and so surprising and enjoyable, no re-read has amounted to it. :p If you're not familiar with Austen novels you must've been living under a rock. But this one's about a rich, rather arrogant young woman and the learning of her lessons. Ultimately a delightful romance and otherwise entertaining story.
Pickwick Papers by Charles Dickens. I haven't re-read this yet, but there are no words to describe how much I enjoyed it the first time I did. I'm planning to re-read it this winter, and I hope it's as enjoyable. Which, knowing Dickens books long-standings as classics, it shall be. This incredible story is a wonderfully amusing and entertaining novel with an amazingly intricate plot. This book gave me all the admiration and respect for Dickens brilliance that I didn't have before I read his work. One of the best, Pickwick Papers is.
Wives and Daughters by Elizabeth Gaskell. I'm currently re-reading this, and it's almost as good as the first time. It's not as good, because my dislike of certain characters is stronger :p. But, I've been gaining a lot of insight into human character that I didn't realize the first time I read the book. Lovely story about a young girl and her trials subsequent to her father's remarriage. Intricate plot and excellent writing. Truly. Recommend.
Mrs.Frisby and the Rats of Nihm by Robert C. O'Brien. This is certainly one of the books I wish I could read again for the first time. I don't think I could re-read it with as much pleasure-I think most of my enjoyment of this book came from the unexpected contained within. For those who love all animals, mystery, and unique stories, this book is for you.

Well, not even past 6 and I'll have to admit, I can't come up with 10 to this! But I enjoyed it anyway, and I hope you take up one of my recommendations if they appeal to you :)

A Different Chapter

2011-10-03T21:09:00.000-04:00

It feels strange...to be writing here again...yet familiar. Very much like the strange familiarity yet complete rediscovery of autumn. :)

For about a year now, blogger and google haven't worked on my computer (heaven knows why). My blogging suffered, but I was so busy it didn't matter much. And then, when I wasn't so busy any longer, I didn't feel like writing. My last post explain a bit of why. I had all these questions and doubts.. the most basic one was,
What's the purpose of my blogging?

I pondered this, but ultimately decided to let it rest, and it would come together at the right time. I went on with my life, the changes and growths, the pains and joys. I missed blogging to a certain extent, but when I would think about it, those questions still plagued me. Even now, they leave me with a bit of uncertainty...
Recently, I re-read the Anne of Green Gables series by L.M Montgomery. I read the series a few years ago, but I forgot how absolutely delightful and refreshing it is. Though I'm not sure if that's how I thought of it then, but regardless, it was exactly what I needed at this time.

"I'm so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers. It would be terrible if we just skipped from Septermber to November, wouldn't it? Look at these maple branches. Don't they give you a thrill-several thrills?" ~Anne of Green Gables

The constant joy that Anne takes in the simple pleasures and ponderings of life, reminded me of something I had forgotten. A certain freshness to life that I'd let evaporate. Little perspectives and taking joy that I buried under growing pains and disillusionment, disappointment, care, and distraction.

Somehow, I'm a different person than I was the last time I was blogging steadily. At first I was sad, and it was kind of like saying goodbye to a little sibling of mine, to realize how much I've changed, how much my life has changed, and how many things I miss. Blogging was one of those things, and letting go of expectations, disappointments, the past, and remembering other unexplainable, inexplicable things I'd forgotten, I think has enabled me to return to writing.
I'm only one person, in this enormous world, with a very, very little piece of the puzzle that is this universe, and it's not my place to decide how important my puzzle piece is, but to take care of it and share it with the rest of the world, if I feel led to. And I do! So that's nice, haha.
This is a new adventure- the same book, but a different chapter. And I feel willing to share my own journey again with those of you who care to perhaps gain a little comfort, encouragement, or whatever you'd like, in my observations on becoming.
I would like to thank my dear readers that have commented during my absence-it means so much to me, and I appreciate it very much!
Blessings!
and Happy October! :)

the Mundane & attempting Authenticity

2011-06-22T21:12:00.002-04:00

So, before anything else, it would perhaps be best to let you know what I've been doing these past three months! :) Some of you may remember my mentioning my graduation project. I'm happy to say that I successfully completed and passed. That was a relief, then it was the race against time to complete the semester before graduation. I'm happy to say I successfully completed 12 documented years of legal education, and have received my High School diploma. My family and friends were (and are) absolutely amazing during this time, and I had a wonderful graduation weekend. I even went to Hershey Park, my first time at an amusement park. :)

But, I'm not here to talk about mundane things, though those can be fun. Which is why I'll mention that I've continued my sewing studies, though the past month or so they have been halted because of graduation and all that. Also, my photography is on a halt, not only because of business, but because my camera has developed a shutter problem. This is very upsetting, but I believe that everything happens for the best, therefore I'm hoping that the best will happen soon. :)

Before I embarked on my break from blogging, I was really happy with the frequency and content of my posts. As I've been absent, I've often pondered how exactly it was that I was going to revolutionize my blogging. I really want to emphasize on my desire for my blog to be authentic, encouraging, and entertaining. Most of all, I want it to be all that while edifying my fellow bloggers. :) I also want to attempt to be as original as possible. It's very original to do that. :p Truly though, authenticity is my attempt. At any rate, I'll be thinking of this. Meanwhile, I'll continue my weekly observations on becoming posts.
blessings!

I have the strangest feeling...hello!

2011-06-21T13:16:00.000-04:00

It's almost like nervousness, excitement, joy, and unexplained fear. I've been gone longer than I ever thought I would be. Three months. Just fathoming all that these past three months have held blows my mind. Slightly on the "I can't believe I made it," level. It feels like its been forever, yet just a day. Isn't that fascinating? Oh, and hello! :)
This year (starting from I'd say this time last year) has been absolutely tough, incredibly new, and of course, because life is, beautiful. Most of all, this past year has been about self realization, becoming a more developed individual-no longer thinking and acting like a child. I have that liberty in fewer areas now.It's called getting old. ;)
Graduating high school is a rite of passage, but it's a bigger one than I thought it would be. Because now, my job is no longer to study (though I will be doing that), but to pursue whatever it is that I want to do as a living for the rest of my life, at least as I know it now. Taking in hand this responsibility requires much more than just the "work" aspect of it. It's soulful as well. Or at least, it should be.
As young people beginning to develop, not as children but as adults, a phenomenon generations before us have experienced, we must look into ourselves, our hearts, minds, and souls, and decide what is it exactly that we want from life. How do we want to live it? What type of character do we want to have? And are we willing to do the hard work? All these questions for me have meant that I need to stop the work and look into myself. Not outward, not at someone else and definitely not into boxes that I might want to stick myself in to appear a certain way.
Now is the time to take our lives in our hands, with caution, with forethought, with wisdom (parent's and elders can be very helpful in this area), and with soulful action. This is no time for doing things "just to do them". Now is the time to do things that we know we want to do. This can mean different things to different people, therefore I'm not saying you have to go travel Europe or something, though I would like to do that. :) It really is the age of opportunity and it can be one of such power and fulfillment.

Coming back to blogging is feeling a lot like coming back to myself, since the craziness has calmed down, the urgent hard work is over (for now), and that part is exciting. It's a bit nerve wrecking and scary because I want to really revolutionize my blogging, I want to really write what's in my heart. And that might hurt and be work to get out. But, I'm joyful because I can. And I know HaShem (G-d) has a plan. :) That might involve accidental rhyming. ;) Therefore, I'm very happy to be back and I look forward to getting back in touch with my fellow bloggers!

An Official Absence

2011-03-27T21:59:00.000-04:00

I've decided to declare that I shall officially be absent from posting for a month or so. Too busy and too little time. :) And it'll ease my mind to not think, "Oh dear, I haven't posted." :p So here I go,to be productive. Wish me luck!! :)
Shalom!

Today is Tuesday

2011-03-15T17:34:00.000-04:00

And what does that signify? Nothing, except that I couldn't come up with a more engaging title. :\ But hopefully the content of this post will make up for me playing the role of Captain Obvious... :)

There's an absolutely lovely giveaway in celebration of the approaching spring that Hannah's hosting on her blog Aspire!!!

(this time last year)

The weather has been so temperamental-its sunny but cold, its cloudy but it was warm- it's annoying, is what it is. Hopefully March can make up it's mind soon... I don't mind gloomy weather very much but it's rather disappointing when one day you hope spring is here and the next there's that little snowflake symbol glaring at you when you look at the weather forecast for "the week ahead".

I miss my old life-you know, the one where I was care free. Well, I was never care-free, but I was more stress free. :) But, as is completely ~~unexpected~~ normal, (and extremely frustrating at times) the circumstances of my life have changed and it's a new adventure. I only hope I can learn how to live and enjoy it as much as I did former years.

I often wonder-what is it that made that life so gloriously pleasant? There was nothing extraordinary happening, in fact, everything was rather ordinary. But, as humans have discovered before me, simple pleasures often bring so much more joy then we give them credit for.

(from summer 2009)

I will add that the weather is contributing to my state of mind. :p These "good times" I miss were all in the warm months. *hinthint* ;)

Enough dreariness! :) Check out the giveaway if you're interested. If you're not, you might be, after you check it out. I love commas. ;)

Blessings!

Life is Sweet

2011-03-09T13:27:00.000-05:00

A meme hosted by the wonderful Ara at Shilah. :)

Life is incredibly sweet when you are dearly missing a dearly beloved friend, and then find that you'll soon be seeing her. :)
Life is incredibly sweeter than sweet when you see said friend and others at a lovely gathering for Rosh Chodesh.
Sweetness is injected into the blood of life when you are surrounded by friends and family that love you, bless you, and seem to be there when you need it most. From the best friend that comforts you with the indescribable blessing of companionship, though not in person, to the 13 yr old cousin that makes you laugh till you can't anymore...

Sweet is life when you experience new things. Small, but significant. :)
Life is sweet when you are constantly pleased by a book you're listening to or about to read... YAY!!
Life is sweet when you have to hurry to study yet sneak in some time for a post full of sweet love. :)

Top Ten Tuesday:Dynamic Duos!

2011-03-08T22:17:00.000-05:00

From Evernote:

Top Ten Tuesday:Dynamic Duos!

An awesome weekly meme hosted by The Broke and the Bookish . Check out her list and the lists of other link ups-which I hope you'll choose to be one of! Or at least check them out :)

I woul dlove to add images but as the way I post can't handle that, I'll just do with words :) I don't wanna put this off...here we go!

Anne and Diana:Anne of Green Gables Series- When I first read the series (over a few years time, and after first watching the movie), I wanted a bosom friend so badly. One to tramp outside with, one to share secrets with, one to hold hands with, one to relate with. I'd never had one, you see, and therefore Anne and Diana stood in my memory so preciously. They still do-even more so now that I do have a bosom friend. Yes, I'm a late bloomer when it comes to this, but Anne felt that she was too, so I'm not alone :) Anne and Diana are the perfect match- Anne being spontaneous, imaginative, passionate, and bold. Diana's sweet, calm, and relaxed nature contrasts with Anne's but I think it also complements it. Some characters are living in other's shadows, but they are nonetheless irreplaceable. Who can imagine Anne without Diana? No one but Josie Pie I suspect....
Emma Woodhouse and George Knightley:Emma by Jane Austen- I saw many people chose the Pride and Prejudice couple, Elizabeth and Mr.Darcy, but I thought that Emma and Mr.Knightely were really a duo because they worked together for the peace and happiness of their loved ones, even in their union. They fought, they made up, they danced, they didn't dance, they were friends before lovers and like I said united in their efforts. :)
Tommy and Tuppence Beresford: The T&T Series by Agatha Christie- A friend introduced me to this dynamic duo and I've loved them ever since. I've only read the first two books in the series, but that same dear friend recently lent me the rest to read. I'm so excited because, though mysteries aren't really one of my genres, this couple really intrigues me and so does their detective work. :) Tommy and Tuppence are such a casual, chummy duo that you can't resist them. At least I can't...see I'm hardly saying anything specific or sensible here...too enamored.. :p
Holmes and Watson:The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes by Arthur Conan Doyle- I haven't actually read any of Doyle's works but I've read much about them and seen the recent movie adaptation so I'm quite fond of what I know of them and absolutely love the dynamic duo they make. :) I think they balance each other out well..but I'm an inexperienced judge so I shall stop here and only say I will endeavor to read some Doyle so I can better judge. If you shall judge me for not making statements without knowledge, *ahem* my site my right and I shall try to be more educated in future...
Rose and Alexander Campbell:Eight Cousins and Rose in Bloom by Louisa May Alcott- I'm in the process of re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re- reading these two books and in perfect time to declare them a fabulous duo. I envy Rose that she has such an uncle-who's friend, father, elder brother, sometimes mother, and uncle all in one. They get along soo well and their companionship is so lovely yet not overdone.
Josephine March and Theodore Laurence:Little Women Series by Louisa May Alcott- What chums. What pals. What buddies. Though their relationship changes over time, they continue to preserve a bond that cannot be broken. Their connection was obvious from the beginning and proves that perhaps, in a perfect world, a boy and a girl can be friends, one of them take it too far, get over it, marry the other's sister, and still stay great friends. :p
Stanley Yelnats and Zero: Holes by Louis Sachar- The touching friendship that this duo displayed in their troubles was..touching :p
Gertrude Flint and William Sullivan:The Lamplighter by Maria Cummins- Another couple that started out as friends for years and grew to something deeper. Much like Emma and Mr.Knightley, they worked, hurt, grew, and loved together. One of the most pleasing and dynamic duos out there. :)
Mr.Pickwick, Mr.Tupman, Mr.Winkle,and Mr.Snodgrass:The Pickwick Papers by Charles Dickens- I thought I wouldn't fall into what some people did (listing a duo that wasn't actually a duo), but if you divide this one in half there'd be two duos, which is highly suitable because I don't have a 10th duo. THIS.DOUBLE.DUO.IS.AWESOME. To the point of indescribableness... Ah yes, that's a word. Seriously, I don't have words for the awesomeness that is the Pickwinians. Mr.Pickwicks genuine ingenuity, Mr.Tupmans romantic heart, Mr.Winkles prideful yet comical character, and Mr.Snodgrass's peculiar soberness blend together so perfectly I can rightly pronounce Dickens-a GENIUS. :)

Thoughts of Spring:Blog Party

2011-03-02T17:29:00.001-05:00

Click the button for all the fabulous info and wonderful prizes and to link up!! Thanks to Lynette Kraft :)

I am a young lady living in the North East with my family and two dogs. I'm an aspiring photographer and entrepreneur, together, and in my senior year. I love to observe, write, read,listen to music, and spend time with nature and family and friends. I'm shy with others though my family sometimes can't get me to be quiet, and I'm not outgoing but very passionate. I strive to keep following HaShem and live for Him, becoming who He desires me to become.

How would people describe your personality? (If they could only use ONE word.) Are they right?

People would probably describe me, based on experience, as nice,awesome,cool,attractive...oh, one word..oops.. :p I always have trouble answering this question but I suppose the one word would be-gentle. Or ask my mother, she's good at these things.. :p

Be brave – tell us something very random and weird about yourself

I'm random and weird.Oh,specific, did you say? Well, I suppose one thing is that I daydream a lot. But I'm not sure if that's entirely uncommon...

Do you have a strong desire to do something you’ve never done? What is it?

Travel. Or buy without monetary consideration. One and the same I'd say, since money is needed in large supplies for both... :p

Books: Fiction, Non-Fiction, Romance, Biographies, True Stories, Self-Help, Devotional/Study?

Fiction, please, preferably not modern, with an occasional self-help or biography thrown in.

Name one weakness of yours (confession is good for the soul).

I can be a very fearful person-fearful of what others think, of what may or may not occur in the future, of myself and my capabilities or incapabilities-of life... May I add that I only confessed this because I expected to receive compensation (goodness for my soul) and shall be expectantly waiting for it... :p Ah, another confession would be that I am in a contrary mood today..

If you could live anywhere at all (and take all your loved ones with you), where would you go?

Somewhere beautiful. And nearly unpolluted.

What’s something you consider yourself to be good at? (Don’t worry, it’s not bragging, it’s acknowledging a God given gift).

Listening to others and feeling what they feel. I'm working on being more encouraging, which follows :)

Are you a hopeless romantic?

No, I am not. But very susceptible to it. ;)

What movie or book character can you most relate to?

One character I can instantly think of is Eleanor Dashwood of Jane Austen's Sense and Sensibility. I've taken several different quizzes several times and I always come out as Eleanor, but I must admit I am quite pleased with this because I naturally extremely relate to her. This is especially noticeable to me when I read the book. :)

I hope you go link up and join the fun!

Life. is. Sweet. on. March.First

2011-03-01T21:32:00.002-05:00

There are some things that just pop in your life and add a bit of sweetness in it. Like learning to sew with my grandmother, who is an excellent seamstress.

Sweetness can also be found in long sunny walk...
In best friends who are always there, always encouraging, edifying, comforting, and other marvelous adjectives that don't come to mind because my feelings are too deep and indescribable.
Reading (or rather, in this case, listening to) a book that you so enjoy for many days and want to read it again the instant you're done.North and South by Elizabeth Gaskell was lovely. Good thing there's a movie adaptation which I'll be watching sometime this weekend...
Coming across a movie or a moment that you're surprised pleased you so much.
Sweet little pleasures that you don't get to as often as you'd like...

Getting to bed early, waking up early, yet still not having enough time in a day to do all that must be done. But maturing enough to understand that though its incredibly frustrating at times, that's life. And it's sweet.

Observations on Becoming~Feb.27

2011-02-27T18:56:00.000-05:00

It's almost March. Life has been so engaging. Yet in a way I haven't been here lately -in my life,in my self,in my home. I've been in my dreams,in my imagination,in my hopes,prayers, and desires.
I want to grasp all the G-d given opportunities to become what He has destined me to be.
I want to use my observations to gain knowledge on how to better love myself and others.
I want to live with every moment and every fiber. In this world, in my world, in His world.
I want to travel. I want to be close to the preserved,authentic, beautiful parts of nature. I want to touch,to feel,to see,to experience. Everywhere. Nowhere. Somewhere.
Most of all, I want to live my desires everyday-cease to dream and wonder and wish for them but experience them.

Sent from my iPod

Top Ten Five Tuesday:Movie Adaptations (late)

2011-02-23T17:00:00.000-05:00

I'm only doing 5 because of time and brain space. :p

Jane Eyre: The 2006 movie adaptation is absolutely wonderful. Period. Ok, yeah, maybe it isn't completely accurate, but it is completely...AWESOME! :P Here's my review...
Sense and Sensibility: The 1990 something and 2008 adaptations(my review) are both wonderful, though I have a soft spot for the 1990something version with Emma Thompson, Hugh Grant, Kate Winslet, and other great actors. :) The book is my favorite of Austen's, and so I treasure the movies too.
Pride and Prejudice: Of course, of maybe not so of course for some people, I'm talking about the 1995 adaptation with Jennifer Ehle and Colin Firth. Though its a long movie (TV series actually) it is just so...indescribably wonderful. I think it reallly conveys the Austen spirit.
A Series of Unfortunate Events: Is it just me or does Lemony Snicket sneak his way into all of my top tens? :p The movie adaptation with Jim Carrey is absolute brilliance-the only thing I could wish for is that they would've done the whole series....
Emma: Both recent movie adaptations- 1990something with Gwyneth Paltrow and the 2009 one(my review) with Romola Garai are both fantabulous. Both bring something new and different and yet without losing any of the classic Austen or Emma.

There's my top 5-agree or disagree?

Miscellany Monday: February 21

2011-02-21T18:46:00.000-05:00

From Evernote:

Random. I'm good at this. When I least expect it. And when it is most ~~annoying~~ stimulating to others. But when it is demanded of me, my mind draws a blank. A boring blank. This is a most common and unfortunate occurrence. But let me proceed...

Its raining today. For the first time in a while. In fact, its been rather sunny lately, though very windy. Ah, you know those moments when there's nothing to talk about so you talk about the weather? This is not one of them.

I love making soup. Its so nostalgic and yummy. And fun. I also like making Shepherds pie. And mashed potatoes. Which go in the Shepherds pie. Moving on...

There was no school today it being presidents day and all, and I meant to spend it productively but time just flies too fast and some things take too long. But, that's life. You do what you're meant to do if you're at least trying your best.

I've been so neglectful of my observations on becoming but I'm enjoying posting some different, lighter material. As well as creating some different, lighter material in Photoshop.

Comments are awesome. I try to comment when a post has touched or inspired me, because I think all passionate writers need to know that people are reading their thoughts. But with Google not working on my computer, I have to use my lil iPod so commenting is minimum. Anyway, I want to thank my readers for their comments if I haven't replied on your blog. :)

Every time I think of my graduation project and the deadline I get this nervous, faint feeling in my throat. It's due mid-March (a five page paper on the connection between photography and words-a bit of the history and development of art in there), and I've been so unexpectedly and unpredictably busy lately. But b'ezrat HaShem I'll whip it up.

Link up at Carissa's!

Life is Sweet...

2011-02-18T17:12:00.000-05:00

A meme created by the AWESOME Ara, it has been on many of the blogs I follow and I just have to surrender to the peer pressure. Just this once [maybe]. Below is Ara's eloquent description of Life is Sweet. 'Cause no one could've said it better...

Life is so terribly sweet. I don't know why sometimes it's so hard for me to remember that it'samazingly sugar sweet. But then sometimes, I forget which pair of socks I'm wearing...as if that really had anything to do with it. :) But here I am, wanting to remember those lovely things that make me so warm inside, like a lit-up Christmas tree in my heart. Those things that can make my face hurt from grinning like the sun smashing into the big moon. If you'd like to, join me in remembering ten things that make your life as sweet as winter peppermints, as deliriously happy as impossibly dreamt, as bouncy as a bungee jump on repeat, and as dreamy as blue moonlight.

Yeah...she rocks..so go follow...after you read my top ten things, of course :p

I love when I find blogs that are so incredibly lovely that I'm shocked at myself for not having found and followed them sooner. Such as Polka Dot's lovely blog (life is too short not to) wear red shoes. And she just so happens to be hosting a giveaway. How appropriately lovely. ;)

I love when I have an epiphany, no matter how large or small. Such as realizing I can post to my photography blog (since Google still doesn't work on my computer) via the awesome Flickr. Yay.
It makes me soooo happy to post normally-meaning on a computer being able to link and use pictures and etc etc etc.
Catching up on blogs I ~~stalk~~ love is SO inspirational!! Seriously, it does something to me..like make me post.. :p Or wanna, at least...
The light of winter-and warmer weather,makes me happy. Though I'm still mistrustful of all the fine weather everyone's been having! *suspiciousshiftyeyes*
Being a nerd makes me happy, especially when there's nerdy apps like dictionary.com.
I.love.thesauruses. If that's even a word....
I'm very happy when listening to random mixes of music on my iPod. Very happy. If I attend college, I'm hoping to take up music as a minor. :)
I love inserting some spontaneity in my life-like..
unexpectedly having a three way chat on Facebook with some peeps,
making my best friend a collage,
editing pictures with sudden inspired ideas..

Ha! There's miraculously more than 10 things. Yay! May your timeuntilwheneverIpostagain be sweet and your Shabbat sweeter!

Character Connection:Gertrude Flint

2011-02-09T21:16:00.000-05:00

From Evernote:

Character Connection:Gertrude Flint

Clipped from: http://www.theintrovertedreader.com/2011/02/character-connection-deeba.html

"Don't you just love larger-than-life characters? The ones who jump off the page and grab you? Whether you love them or hate them, you can't be indifferent to them.

I would love to know about the characters who just won't leave you! Most of you will probably post about how much you love (or loathe) each character, but this is a great place for the more creative ones among you to let go and have fun! Write yourself into a scene with Anne and Diana. Write a love poem in elvish for Aragorn. Draw a picture of Harry obliterating Voldemort. The possibilities are endless.

Be sure to post the book's title and author, and be very careful not to give away spoilers while talking about how much you love your characters.

Mr. Linky will be posted here on The Introverted Reader every Thursday."

Though her name is so odd,as she is herself, Gertrude Flint is one of my absolutely favorite characters. Ever. The heroine of little known Maria Cummins book, The Lamplighter, she has been beloved by me since I was about 8 or 9. One of the first 19th century books I ever read-indeed, one of the first lengthy books I had ever read. If you question the interestingness of this novel about a young,mistreated orphan girl taken in by a kindly old lamplighter and the many twists and turns her story takes, I can tell you that it has captivated me over and over for almost 10 years. I recently finished re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re reading it. :)

Why I connect to Gertrude: Gertrude is one of those not so frequent characters that develop and grow consistently throughout the book, and who approaches trials realistically and practically, which very much appeals to my nature. :) While keeping her faults under constraint, she is nonetheless true to herself and directs her fiery yet deep impulses towards positivity. And she is such an original character. Originality is very endearing to me. :)

Her good qualities (faithfully and unreservedly loving those who prove themselves worthy of it) are also realistic and not over-dramatic.

I could go on and on about this book and its several awesome characters and plots, but I would highly recommend you read it for yourself. Its available as audio for free at librivox.org

until next time!

a lover of literature

Top Ten Tuesday:Characters That I'd Name My Children After

2011-02-08T22:17:00.000-05:00

From Evernote:

Top Ten Tuesday:Characters That I'd Name My Children After

Clipped from: http://www.brokeandbookish.blogspot.com/

"Top Ten Tuesday is an original feature/weekly meme created here at The Broke and the Bookish. This meme was created because we are particularly fond of lists here at The Broke and the Bookish. We'd love to share our lists with other bookish folks and would LOVE to see your top ten lists!
Each week we will post a new Top Ten list complete with one of our bloggers' answers. Everyone is welcome to join. All we ask is that you link back to The Broke and the Bookish on your own Top Ten Tuesday post AND post a comment on our post with a link to your Top Ten Tuesday post to share with us and all those who are participating. If you don't have a blog, just post your answers as a comment. If you can't come up with ten, don't worry about it---post as many as you can!"

I'm excited to be doing a meme again!! Especially this week's- Top Ten Characters (and Literary Figures) That I'd Name My Children After. :) I'll be changing it to That I'd Name My Children or an Animal After. :P

1.Emma (Emma by Jane Austen): I've been drawn to this name for as long as I can rightly remember, and I cannot tell you why. I just find it so lovely in a simple way..

2.Anne (Anne of Green Gables by L.M Montgomery): I absolutely LOVE the name Anne (with an e ;)!! I have the same excuse as I do as to why I like the name Emma, but I must add that it of course reminds me of Anne Shirley and she is such a fascinating character. :)

3. Charles Dickens: because I love this name and it just won't leave me alone. No, its not for a child, but for a future cat I hope to own. :)

4. ~~Louisa~~ May Alcott: I don't like the name Louisa, but I am very fond of the combination May Alcott. I don't know if I'll name a child May, but I do want to name an animal Alcott. Preferably a cat...they just seem so much more...literary...:P

5.Lemony Snicket: For those of you who frequent my blog or know me, you probably saw that coming, or its no surprise. Besides adoring A Series of Unfortunate Events, I also adore this alias because its so original and catchy. Two things I love in names. :)

This would be for a cat, once again. Oh dear, I'm afraid I'm giving the impression of becoming a cat lady. :p

6.Oscar Wilde: Another original and catchy name, its endeared to me by the many witty or otherwise known as sarcastic quotes of his. I have yet to read one of his works, but I soon shall. :)

7.Adelaide: I might name my child this..or perhaps keep it as an optional middle name..I'm not sure. But I do know that I like this name very much. Its lady like, youthful, and original.

8.Dumbledore(Harry Potter): Again for a cat. Gosh, I just can't help it!!! There aren't a lot of literary names out there that I'd name my children after. And I don't see myself owning any animal except for a cat so...

And now that I've come so far and so close to bed time (in fact a few minutes past), my mind has drawn a blank for names. And it doesn't help that I'm only coming up with ones for cats :p Hope to post again soon!

Experience on Becoming~Jan.31

2011-01-31T21:12:00.001-05:00

On Experience~

I have learned so much about relationships and people in the past year than I had ever anticipated. Instead of obtaining knowledge as I have done all my life through observing others, Torah study, and self help books, I was actually placed in situations (by HaShem, who knows all things) where I had to live out my knowledge to the best of my ability. I can tell you-knowledge is not sufficient. ;) It is necessary for awap (as wise as possible) decisions, but there is no teacher like experience. :) A chance to "practice what you preach", as it were. :p

For nerds like me that like reading definitions, here's a short but extensive one on the word experience. :)

ex·pe·ri·ence (synonyms:sense,wisdom,understanding,involvement, judgment,maturity,observation,practice)
1.a particular instance of personally encountering or undergoing something.
2.the process or fact of personally observing, encountering, or undergoing something: business experience.

3.the observing, encountering, or undergoing of things generally as they occur in the course of time: to learn from experience; the range of human experience.

4.knowledge or practical wisdom gained from what one has observed, encountered, or undergone: a man of experience.

5.Philosophy . the totality of the cognitions given by perception; all that is perceived, understood, and remembered.

On Knowledge~
We are only human.We are not perfect. We do not know it all.That being comfortably stated, we can proceed. Gaining knowledge, whether through observation or experience, or both, is something we all do-purposely and inadvertently. No matter how much knowledge we gain, or experience we obtain, there will always be something more to learn, something more to improve-something more. But this is no reason for despair. While we do not know everything, we do or shall know something. At present, we have the responsibility to use what we do know to make decisions. :)

knowl·edge
1.acquaintance with facts, truths, or principles, as from study or investigation; general erudition: knowledge of many things.

2.familiarity or conversance, as with a particular subject or branch of learning.
3.acquaintance or familiarity gained by sight, experience, or report: a knowledge of human nature.
4.the fact or state of knowing; the perception of fact or truth; clear and certain mental apprehension.

5.awareness, as of a fact or circumstance.

6.something that is or may be known; information.

7.the body of truths or facts accumulated in the course of time.

On AWAP~
I am young. Very young. I do not have much knowledge, and much less experience. But I do know what I have learned from my very little experience or slightly more knowledge, and as a young person beginning to relate to others as a developing individual, I must make use of whatever I do know. Not only is this so I can make decisions as wisely as possible now, but so that I can learn from my mistakes and improve my good decisions for the future. I want to make wise decisions then as well, but they won't be perfect. As wise as possible. That is all they can be.

I hope this post has been a blessing-I must note that this is what was on my heart today, but I do want to expound on something I said in my last post perhaps later this week. :) Also, the title is just to correspond with my emphasis on experience. Not a permanent arrangement. :)

Blessings!

Observations on Becoming~ Jan.25

2011-01-25T20:58:00.001-05:00

I've been such a neglectful blogger- I have no excuses and can only say that I must go with the flow of life. Remember, it's a crazy beautiful mess. :). So here are some observations I've made sure to note over the last few weeks.
I don't think a life with G-D in it is perfect, but it's clearer, more full of light, truth, and righteousness.
No more no more. The phrase "no more" holds a negative connotation for me. It implies shame, too much of a bad thing, and desperation. Instead of saying "no more" I wanna say, " I will stop". For me, that means personal, determined, and definitive intention.
Danger of comparative analysis
Comparative analysis. One of the most poisonous, dangerous,blinding, and deceptive analysis you can make use of. Comparing one thing to another-yourself, your performances, your talents, comparing others,possessions, and, in my opinion, one sin or fault with another, is wrong. We need to be able to look at things for what they are or are not, not what they're more or less of.
This adventure
Many people, especially teens, look to the future. A future adventure, a future experience- something that they more than look forward to-something they live the present on. Today is an adventure, living is an adventure. Live it. :)
Blessings!

Observations on Becoming~ Dec.26

2010-12-26T20:17:00.002-05:00

"Men occasionally stumble over the truth, but most of them pick themselves up and hurry off as if nothing ever happened."— Winston S. Churchill

Truth. This is a small but powerful word. Some people literally shy away from it because they've avoided it in certain areas of their lives. Some people think that it's whatever pops into their head. Others think it means, simply, not telling lies. But very few think of it as a necessary and desirable component in the whole of every aspect of their lives.

truth [trooth] ,
–noun, plural truths [troothz, trooths] .
1.the true or actual state of a matter.
2.conformity with fact or reality; verity: the truth of a statement.
3.a verified or indisputable fact, proposition, principle, or the like: mathematical truths.
4.the state or character of being true.
5.actuality or actual existence.
6.an obvious or accepted fact; truism; platitude.
7.honesty; integrity; truthfulness.
8.(often initial capital letter) ideal or fundamental reality apart from and transcending perceived experience: the basic truths of life.
9.agreement with a standard or original.
10.accuracy, as of position or adjustment.
11.Archaic. fidelity or constancy.
—Synonyms 1. fact. 2. veracity. 7. sincerity, candor, frankness. 10. precision, exactness.

Truth is light. Truth is righteousness. Truth is tricky. Not only because there are so many different definitions and perspectives of it, but also because real, unalterable, self-proving truth is hard to get to when you're stuck in a mentality. It's also sometimes hard to face-and hard for other people, who are not personally enlightened, to see.

"All truth passes through three stages: First, it is ridiculed; Second, it is violently opposed; Third, it is accepted as self-evident."— Arthur Schopenhauer

Let me here state what I believe the definition of truth, as I am speaking of it now, to be. I believe that truth means the fact of things-not only physically, but mentally and spiritually.

"8.(often initial capital letter) ideal or fundamental reality apart from and transcending perceived experience: the basic truths of life."

For example, it is an unalterable fact that the sun rises everyday. It is also a fact that it is best to say what you mean and mean what you say, otherwise you're being something other than what you are. That is deceptive and eventually disastrous, therefore to be more authentic to yourself- your thoughts,opinions, and most of all beliefs, would be truth.

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."— Dr. Seuss

It is more difficult than I thought it would be to describe what I mean in my heart- but it's never easy describing abstract things such as truth, love, and faith.

When we infuse our lives with love, like I talked about in my last post, and with righteousness according to HaShem and His word, our sense of truth becomes stronger, clearer, sharper, easier to articulate, and truly indisputable deep in our hearts- and often the hearts of others.

Truth must start spiritually in order to come out from the core of ourselves and infuse the other areas of our lives. I've said many times that our thoughts are where everything starts- but I think I may have neglected to say that that is only after we have attended to our core-to our spirituality. That is where everything stems out of.

"The truth does not change according to our ability to stomach it."— Flannery O'Connor

To be continued... :p

Observations on Becoming~Dec.21

2010-12-21T18:50:00.002-05:00

Over and over again I've seen my parents work through the worst of themselves and each other together. I've seen the principles of true love-the love you hear about in fairytales- in their marriage. I don't care what the world says or how doubtful people are of it, but true love exists. And, b'ezrat HaShem, I will find it. :)

To infuse my life with love-to make it my life motto-puts things into so much perspective;

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. (1 Corinthians 13 on love)

To say you live for or by love is a serious proclamation. It involves changing your whole lifestyle. But like everything else that involves change and building of character-it takes a lifetime. No body is perfect. But one thing is comforting-G-D is love, an the closer we get to Him the more our hearts and lives become more lovable :)

Observations on Becoming~Nov.28

2010-11-28T22:37:00.003-05:00

There's so many thoughts I've ha and wanted to share, some revelations as well. But as sometimes happens, when I don't write them down right away I forget them. Or sometimes there's so much I process or think about my mind just goes into overload and I can't think about anything 'deep' very cognicently. But I am ready to write. I've been waiting and waiting for the perfect moment to come- which is basically when I feel inspired. It's actually funny what has inspired me to write- I saw a drawing of a little cartoon character watching the rain out the window and I wanted to write. But it's taken me a couple of days to get to this post.
Joyce Meyer once said-"Self pity is compassion reflected on yourself." I'm paraphrasing here. The instant I heard this I knew it was true; and what's more it was extremely true for me. Even in my childhood I would have pity parties while on the floor of my room cleaning. Of course, everyone is familiar with pity parties and what they entail :) Anyway, that was a revelation for me. I must admit though-I an still deep into self pity-it is one of my 'most inclined' faults. The way I try not to RSVP to a pity party (when I remember not to :p) is to find someone else to be compassionate toasted or something to do that will bless someone else. I got that concept from Louisa May Alcotts book "An sold Fashioned Girl". Polly, the heroine of the story, was feeling bad for herself because she was not rich and popular like the city girls. But while she was siting on the steps thinking about herself, she remembered that her mother always said to do something for someone else when she was feeling sad and it would bring her out of herself. :)
With that preface- something that I have been personally experiencing is that there is pity and there is compassion. Well that is to sat, I have come to a place in my life where pity is feeling bad for myself or another person in a negative way- it makes me feels negative, act negatively, and think negatively. Compassion, on the other hand, moves you in your soul, uplifts you, and moves you towards positive action or positive letting go. I have realized something that I never thought about before- you can't stay on relationships because you either pity yourself and think you have no friends or love, or because you pity the person you're in relationship with and don't want to hurt their feelings. Those are wrong motives for doing anything really-obviously this is more relevant to relationships. :)
One thing that I try to keep in plain sight when it comes to my relationships is-yes, the other persons feelings are important-they're people too-but that's no reason to sacrifice my peace,self respect or dignity, and authenticity. That's why it's important to approach relationships, not from a place of lack but from a place of confidence and humility. But I think that's enough on this aspect of the topic-I could go on and on... :)
Well I must end this post- I promise the surprise will be up soon-though I must warn you-it will most likely be not so surprising :p
Blessings!!!!!!

Well lookey here!

2010-11-09T23:55:00.000-05:00

Surprise!!!! How do you like it? I think Hannah from Vivid Designs Studio did an absolutely marvelous job! it's been hard for me not to mention this all this time, but here it is, and I think it matches the new-ish name perfectly too! There's another surprise coming along as well, and to give you a small hint, it ryhmes with "frog tardy"... Yeah hopefully the terribleness of that rhyme example will get you off the trail... For now, enjoy the new look and thank you for your patience while I rearrange everything. :)
Blessings!

Observations on Becoming~ Nov. 7

2010-11-07T21:41:00.002-05:00

Spanish seasoned chicken is frying and I'm here wandering about the kitchen waiting for a good time to write this weeks post. You know how food is- so needy but so needed. :p I'm actually having a pancake for breakfast since I don't eat meat and there's left over batter. I do eat meat once in a while, especially recently- when there's nothing else substantial to eat. Basically under special circumstances. But I still feel the same way I did almost a year ago now. This year has passed so fast that sometimes looking back it seems like it was yesterday but at the same time it seems like ages ago.
It also seems that for the first time on my life I can look back to this time last year and even earlier thus year and say that I have grown and changed in a positive way.
This season of my life is full of so many different experiences and so much anxious anticipation (not to mention stress and frustration). Now that I'm caught up in school and have re-read the drivers manual (wish there was one of those for my life) I'm aiming at completing my graduation project (wish it didn't have to be a long term thing...ah,wishes....) and getting my permit. I'm also hoping to get a job so I can tend to some monetary things and get backup money for my photography.
A recurring topic in my brain is whether I should go to college straight out of high school or take a year to focus on my photography business as I haven't been able to do. I am 99.9% sure that I'm gonna take a year- the 1% missing in that calculation is the fear that my decision will be wrong. Bit if I do what I know is in my heart (and if I actually listen to my mom) I'll take a year to pursue my passion and then get a degree in secondary English teaching, because I know that that's something I want to do- I feel called to do. Prayers would be appreciated!!!
As long as I pursue love and keep in Him, I shouldn't take these things so seriously... Time flies by so fast, and though decisions do change and direct our lives, HaShem is sovereign and ultimately- everything happens for the best. Three words- FACT, FAITH, FEELING.

Blessings!

Testing[ignore]

2010-11-07T01:24:00.000-04:00

Testing testing testing testing testing testing...

Light

2010-11-06T22:16:00.000-04:00

Hello! This post is being blogged from my new iPod touch! Yay! I'm sure I'll be posting much more often now and more frequently with photos. Goodbye mommy's computer! ;p well I enjoyed a lovely shabbat this weekend. We went to the park, and I keep raving about the quantity and frequency of light and shadows in this season. Autumn is absolutely delightful. :) Right now I'm a bit scatter brained but I assure that VERY soon there will be plenty to talk about :)
Blessings!
Katherine

Observations on Becoming~October 31

2010-10-31T15:25:00.001-04:00

I think that we can all agree it's a good idea if I just post my observations on becoming any day of the week, as long as I do so once a week. :)But anyway, here I am! I love saying that because it reflects how no matter what we go through, how we change, how life changes and what it brings us, there are places we come back to.

I would like to share some photos of my new diary, given to me by a friend. She made it especially for me and put my own meaningful words on the front and back. Isn't it beautiful? The front has a quote that I made, which I've shared with you before: "Life should not be measured by it's length, but by the height of the mountains and the depth of the valleys."

The back has what I thought the girl's eyes were saying: "Do random things like create yourself,your art,your world,and love."

So something I was thinking about last week was-sometimes we do miss out on excellent opportunities and exciting amazing experiences but there's always another one coming along somewhere. I'm still waiting for my "coming along" but maybe its in the little things :)

Another thing that I've been meditating on is how I want HaShem to be my focus.We're never going to be perfect but I wish there woul dbe that push of positive change. I just really want more goodness and more HaShem in my life. I'm going to start looking for Him in the crooks, crannies-in the stroke of the brush and the big pictures. I want to infuse myself with Him so others will feel ut. I want to be in His will every second. I want Him to be crystal clear and as sharp. And I don't need to do everything perfectly or live everything in some orderly formulated way for that. But there are some things that make me feel closer and more centered (like praying and reading the Bible, not giving in to my sinful nature, etc), and of course there are rules to be followed to stay moving forward in that place.

My time is up here- indeed I have a lot to tend to today. So I hope you all have a blessed week!

Ah! Again!

2010-10-26T15:15:00.000-04:00

My apologies for my continued neglect... I'm actually just waiting for..oh I forgot, its a surprise...well well. Today is my birthday, and I'm the glorious 17. Yes, I'm prophesying that its going to be a glorious year for me. Though I kind of can't wait for it to be over- I will fully enjoy it, but I'm a bit nervous about all the action and change to come. But its that time, isn't it.. that was hypothetical, I kinda don't want to hear how old I am over and over and over... :p
Well anyhow, I hope to soon be able to reveal the surprise. In the meanwhile, I'm focusing on some other things. Like senior year and what not. Seriously, what not. :p

shalom u'vracha! Peace and blessings!

It's been too long...

2010-10-19T21:26:00.001-04:00

since I've written! At all! Except for an essay on Beowulf, in my diary so I can complete it by my birthday, and in my mind. ;)

As is customary, I must present to my dear neglected readers at least 3 good excuses, which when thought about, are not good at all, which is tradition as well. So to proceed....

Well, I've entered Senior year! WOOHOO! I'm taking English, Geometry, Psychology, Journalism, Geography Society, Web Design, and I feel like I'm missing something. But you get it. :) So because I am enrolled in a cyber charter school, and late in the year so far, I have to catch up. So I've been busy about that. Also I'm planning some other events and activities, which I'm sure you'll hear about later this year if you're at all interested.

I've also been spending a lot of time outside, enjoying the incredibly wonderful weather, and my insanely beautiful family. G-D has been lovely to me, as always and ever, and I'm just so full of joy, love, and happiness in this season. Of course I'm not without my struggles, fights, and failures, but I know that they don't define my life.

Because at the end of the day, we realize what's important, and its our victories, the love we give and share, and fulfilling our purpose-from doing schoolwork, to graduating, to ministering to others. I've talked before about putting life and things such as family, G-D, etc etc in a box, and not realizing how all the little things matter is putting life into a small small box. :)

"I believe the nicest and sweetest days are not those on which anything very splendid or wonderful or exciting happens, but just those that bring simple little pleasures, following one another softly, like pearls slipping off a string."— L.M. Montgomery

Another thing I've been meditating (a word which here means what I think about when I should be going to bed) is how freeing and incredibly amazing it feels to just let go and let live, truly. Of situations, of the past, of boxes. To let G-D come in and heal, restore, and replace is incredibly beautiful .Surrender is beautiful. Difficult at times, but freeing. It allows you to be free to love. :)
Yes, you can tell I'm behind on my observations on becoming.

I've been under the weather as well for awhile now, so I've been too sickly to write in my free time, except for now of course. :) But I do fully intend to be more consistent-especially since I am going to, b'ezrat HaShem, be so in all areas of my life, starting November. :)

At present I am beginning to not feel too well, so my brain is shutting down. I must bid you farewell, and hope that this post has blessed you. :)

P.S- Thanks to my new followers and whoever has checked out my interview at (of)HorseFeathers. :)

Little Notes....please read

2010-10-12T11:28:00.000-04:00

Hi everyone! I know I've been so absent-not even being able to do my observations on becoming. But I need to drop a quick note today asking you to CLICK HERE and vote for my mom, Angelique Arroyo.You can visit her blog and click away there to find out more. Thanks!!

Also, today I'm being featured on (of)HorseFeathers! It was an honor to be interviewed on Olive Tree's lovely blog, and I hope you all go check it out. And for those checking my blog out, thanks! I really appreciate all readers. :)))))

I'll try to get a substantial post in today, but for now, blessings!

Observations on Becoming (late)~September 27

2010-09-27T17:02:00.000-04:00

Sukkot-
SO I've been waiting for this joyous holiday for quite some time now-since Rosh Hashana. Why? Well I've felt so much joy and I've had to bottle it up until Sukkot, so that I'd have enough to last me. :) You know, that's the thing about joy-its strong but in it's highest degree, whatever that may be for each individual, it rarely lasts very long. :p Yes, true, deep, inner joy is always inside of us-sometimes deeeeeeeeep down, but it has to be true to always be there. :) And so speaking of it not lasting very long, it didn't. I guess bottling up doesn't work. >_<
Anyway!! Sukkot is the anniversary of Yeshua's birth, the celebration of the new season and harvest (autumn) and a time to remmeber that we're only temporary dweller's in this world-everything is temporary.
What are you holding on too tight to in your life, that you need to let go of this new year? Or at this time in your life?
For me-I don't know what I need to let go of just yet. But I do know it is time to start some new things. Like a job to get my photography off the ground, and outside activities like volunteer work. Yuppers. :)

Constantly Swinging

2010-09-22T10:10:00.000-04:00

Long story short, I wasn't able to put my signature on the photo, please excuse the weird title and do not copy the picture. :)

One day, I'll be sitting on a bench (preferably a swinging bench like the one above-I love swings) with my besheret (soul mate, the one G-D has chosen for me), laughing and loving and being happy. But for now, my job is to save myself-emotions, thoughts, body, and love, for him.

It's no coincidence that there are thousands of teen pregnancies, and that when people hit the teen years they begin to be interested in the opposite sex. This is a time of physical and mental development, and a time of hormones and what not, really. :p It becomes critical to have physical and emotional boundaries, because though we are becoming adults, we are not fully matured mentally or physically. (Of course there are exceptions now and then-but I'm speaking generally, and as usual, from my experience and opinion :p)

It is important as young ladies to know what we want in a husband, and have an idea of what G-D wants for us to have in a husband. Anyone who doesn't "fit the bill", if I'm saying that correctly, shouldn't be given a second thought as an eligible mate. And those who we think are or might be eligible, we need to be very careful with ourselves that we don't start making our own plans or giving our hearts away, because unless we're absolutely sure that G-D's pointed out the one, we never know. Mr.Darcy, or should I say, Jane Austen, was perfectly right-

"A lady's imagination jumps from admiration to love, and from love to matrimony in a moment."

We need to guard our thoughts. I cannot emphasize this enough. In all my purity posts, I always place the greatest importance on thoughts. That's where everything begins. Remember, its natural to feel attraction and etc, but that doesn't mean we should run with it.

And with all the advertising and influences out there to date and go with your physical attractions and emotions, its hard to stay focused. Focused on saving ourselves, on worshiping HaShem with all our hearts, soul, and might, and on preparing ourselves for our futures.

What is a besheret? Its your soul mate! Yes, there is such a thing! You cannot just marry anyone-G-D has set apart a person for you and you for a person. A match made in heaven, a divine match, meant to be, perfect for each other-all those expressions are true and possible. We have to wait for the person that makes them actual.

There's a person who's personality, calling in life, likes and dislikes, passions and dare I say it, looks, compliment and match ours. Yes, there will be differences, but they are to be worked out, not given up on. No two people are exactly alike. In my family, it is our belief that in a marriage, there must be complete agreement in politics,parenting, religion, and all those important fundamental principals and issues. Now whether he likes broccoli and you don't really doesn't matter. :p

Don't give up-in marriage, before marriage- it will sometimes be as hard in a relationship as it is waiting for one. There is no savior or salvation from natural life problems. No escape-we are constantly being molded and changed-developed and matured. We are and always will be constantly becoming.

What....is a strange word

2010-09-21T11:12:00.000-04:00

I'm trying to think of why it is that every time I write an observations on becoming post in which I don't know what to write about, it happens that later that night something occurs that makes me wish I hadn't already written. But at the same time I'm kind of glad it happens that way, because then I post more often. :) Today I want to share an excerpt from my diary-written on earlier this week. The reason I'm getting straight from my diary is 'cause its already written and I don't have to put it into words again. :p

Sunday, Sep.19,10
What am I doing? What do I have to show for each day? What did I accomplish? I didn't even pray, work hard, or bless anyone. I really want to make each day meaningful. Because I'm not engaged in any [outside] activities, I need to be about more serious business [in the home].

Using my demeanor for HaShem's glory and to bless others.
Using my words to honor G-D and encourage and edify others.
Using my actions to help and bless others and push myself forward.
Praying and reading everyday.

Yes, I write bullet point lists in my diary.What can I say, they're addictive :p Anyway, the point of all that , or better said, where all that came from, is the place of feeling that my life is meaningless right now, and aimless, just because it doesn't "look" like some ideal that I must have hidden in my heart. This is important because waiting for this ideal to take form, or trying to make it happen, are both impossible and dangerous things-fighting the flow.

I have to accept my life how it is, make the best of it, and love it and live in it. And the most important part of all this is doing all that towards and of myself as well. Although my life isn't all about me, I decide how it is lived and how I look at it, and to do both of those things to please G-D, I need to work on myself-line myself up with His will for me and what I desire my life to be.Not other than what it is, but within what it is. And I feel like I just confused myself and everyone. :p

How can I let an ideal define what my life is? what I am? How can I let a person define what my life is? Who I am? What wrong! What lies! What exclamations! Yeah my life's not a perfect fairytale or something-but WHATEVER!!!!!!! I don't have a busy social life, I'm not hip or modern (maybe just a bit :p) I'm not "in the world" or cool or your average teen. I never will be! Especially after I leave the teen years. :p

Listen dear girls, don't doubt your beautiful neshama (soul), don't allow anyone or anything, even yourself, to make you feel worthless or unimportant or anything with an "un" before it or "less" after it. :) Love yourself because G-D first loved you, and then love others as yourself. You can't do that till you love yourself, obviously. :p

"The Next Girl"

2010-09-20T10:38:00.000-04:00

Who is "The next girl"? People, especially on television, say- "I love___ as much as the next girl" or "I'm as _______ as the next girl". I wish there weren't those expectations and stereotypes and boxes to be fit into. I hope one day the phrase "the next girl" won't exist because everyone will know that the next girl is an individual with a different personality and likes and dislikes. Everyone will know that just because something is popular or expected, doesn't mean everyone is actually doing it, or has to.

I'm not the next girl, and never will be. And I'm not going to be ashamed that I'm not. I'm not going to feel out of place or left out cause I'm not the next girl. And I'm not going to stretch myself to be the before girl either. I don't have to be something I'm not to be something I'm..not. :)

Just be Me

Observations on Becoming~ September 19

2010-09-19T18:54:00.001-04:00

I'm excited. Only 37 days till I enter my 18th year (turn 17) and its unreal. I'm not looking forward to anything in particular about it, but its just exciting. :) Maybe I'll become a more interesting person, cause right now I don't know what else to write! :p

So instead, I will direct you to an awesome artist!

First up, Elly at Elly's Wonders. You must check out this woman's art!!!!!!!!! MUST!!! :) And I'm so blessed to be able to claim that she is my awesome aunt. :) To inspire you further to click the link, in case you didn't or won't, here's a direct link to her Etsy, so you can get straight to the incredible art.

Blessings til' next week dear readers, when I'll hopefully be able to write more "observational" things :p

It really does feel like living...

2010-09-14T11:55:00.000-04:00

Have you ever had a day that was full of raw, happy emotions? A day that reminds you of the essence and core of love in family and friends? A day that humbles you because you realize your hardheartedness? A day that your eyes and heart are open to see the good in people, and hold it close for a long time?
I've had one of those days- to be honest, I think I've been having those kind of days since Rosh HaShana (Jewish New Year). What better way to start the new year? Baruch HaShem (praise G-D).

Yesterday I wrote about not having much to write about-but how amazing is G-D? By the end of the day my heart was full-so much happens in so little time. But before you start thinking I'm talking about some amazing big event, I must inform you that I was running around Chuck E. Cheeses' for a few hours and then eating dinner and laughing for the rest of the time before heading home. So no, there was no miraculous occurance. :p I have to go right now but I think I'll write more tomorrow as well.
blessings!

Observations on Becoming~ September 13 (late)

2010-09-13T09:49:00.000-04:00

My apologies- I wasn't able to reach my mother's computer yesterday. But here I am today, right? And that's all that matters. We may fail or falter but there's always the new day and where you are now, doing right now, is what matters. :)

I like to observe people clean. It is just so amazing. You know, seeing someone work, and not having to exert any effort yourself to get whatever they are cleaning clean. And also it's inspiring-you admire their diligence and ability to clean, and it makes you want to clean so you can be admired too. ;) All right, I'm only partly serious. Anyway...

I'm beginning to get a bit anxious to really make progress in my business, it being a new year and all. But I know I have to be content with where I have to be at right now, and there's still a lot of progress I can make with it sitting here at home.

I'm also excited-its my last year of school, and perhaps I'll be beginning college (next semester). And it feels good to be "growing up" and doing "grown up" things. ;p But of course, at the same time I'm a bit nervous about all of this- I mean, I'm still not sure if I'm a grown up kid or a young adult. There's a difference. :p I think I'm somewhere in-between.

I'm going to begin to share one of my favorite songs every Sunday. I usually listen to music while I write and it really inspires me :D I also want to welcome the new followers! Thanks ladies!

Excuse the shortness of this post, but perhaps I'll have more to "observe" next week. :)

blessings!

Grace Like Rain: Interview: Me!

2010-09-10T14:48:00.000-04:00

Grace Like Rain: Interview: Katherine at Observations on Becoming: "Today is a very special day because today, I reveal to you my interview done with the beautiful Katherine from Observations on Becoming. I ..."

It was my honor and pleasure to be interviewed by the lovely and inspiring Emily Shae! You can read it here-Grace Like Rain. I didn't answer one questions and didn't finish one answer, thanks to my sometimes crazy brain ;)

My advice to aspiring photographer's would be- Photography can be a hobby or a small business-or a large business, you have to decide where you want to go with it, and when you do, pursue that path. But you have to love it and be very passionate about it. :) In my case, I want it to be my full time/part time business, but I need a fall back, and some way to get the money to do that. So I am going to college to pursue a degree in English, so I can teach, tutor, and the like, English and Literature being equal in love and passion to me as photography. :)

I want to thank Emily once again for her graciousness and for inspiring me to live for the L-rd!!!! If you have not read her blog you must do so! It'll be worth it, I promise you. :)

It's the year 5771, well, it's going to be...

2010-09-08T16:06:00.000-04:00

I never can believe it when another year comes around. I never can be grateful enough for G-D's mercy, love, grace, and forgiveness. I never can stop thinking about all I've been through, overcome, and maybe not overcome this past year. I never can look at the sun setting on the first of Tishrei each year with complacency and non-chalantness. I never can find another way to say non-chalantness. I never can stop making up my own words. I never can stop rambling. :p
Yes, today at sunset is the first day of a new year (according to the Jewish/Biblical/Hebrew calendar) and it is a HUGE, I mean HUGE marking of time, a incredibly powerful and important season.
But what I am here to say is that I'm so thankful to HaShem, to the amazing people that have touched my life this year, to the amazing experiences I've had, and to have another year to do it all over again, but differently. Hopefully better, more G-D filled, but no doubt-no doubt- He will be beside me, guiding me, leading me, and showing me, as He does year after year. :) And of course I want it filled with happiness, with joy, with fuffilment, with learning, with growing, with embracing, but most of all, with TONS AND TONS of LOVE. Amen. :) I wish the same to all of you, my dear readers, whether you observe Judaism or not, I hope you have a lovely September to September :)

L'shana Tovah!!!!!!!!!!!!

Observations on Becoming~ September 5

2010-09-05T20:38:00.000-04:00

Ah! Maturity! Often mistaken for age or responsibility, and often used to insult people when the letters “im” are put before it. But what is maturity really? Is it being the better, bigger person? Is it always being cool, calm and collected? Is it being older in age? NO!!! Maturity like all qualities and virtues is completely an inward thing, that shows in your behavior and actions. Maturity is often separated from things like kindness, generosity, and etc, but I think it is as important-not more, not less.
But here’s the key- it’s a life long journey! There will always be an area you are immature in, and that’s ok. A friend of mine said that life would be pretty boring if there wasn’t such a thing as immaturity. Or something like that :p Often times, when I find myself in situations, I don’t tend to think, “What’s the mature thing to do?” Sometimes we don’t know. So rather, I think to myself, “What should I do, according to what I know, where I am at, and what I understand?”
We’re at different levels of “maturity” at different times in our lives. We can always ask people we think are wise and mature for advice, but our lives are ours to live.
Another thing I want to mention- let’s not put on airs of “maturity” because our masks always fall off. It's often thought of as some badge to put on -but the very putting on of that badge is immature, because it shows you don't understand that it's an inward journey.

Ah. Self confidence! I mentioned it last week- but this week I want to talk about having it! As I mentioned, I lack a bit, ok, more than a bit in self confidence, and it is not good! It makes for many struggles. I want to encourage you to not be afraid to believe in yourself, to believe in HaShem in you, and not to doubt the good and the powerful in you. G-D placed it there, and to second guess it, to shove it to the side, I think is a dishonor to Him. Use it for His glory, and to do what He has called you to do.
People shouldn’t have the power to make us feel less than or incompetent just because we don’t own our own strength and our own selves. It’s not humility to put yourself down or put yourself below others as if you’re not worth anything. Yes, do things for other’s, put other’s before yourself-don’t be selfish. But don’t allow yourself or others to think of you as less worthy, less than, less important. That’s not humility-it’s the opposite of conceit and pride, and just as bad. Extreme's are never good- BALANCE is what we should strive for. Or ease into-whichever is necessary. :p

I have one final thing that I want to talk about. I have come to the dramatic realization that I am tired of being called a "follower" or "not a leader" JUST BECAUSE I have a less dominant personality. I'm not bold enough to say whatever is on my mind- and frankly I don't think its necessary- tact is a forgotten lesson. But anyhow, because of the above two reasons-and because I'm a gentle quiet sort of person, I am labeled as a follower-which gives those with more dominant personalities lead-way to treat me as such.

Now there's a few things-first, there's nothing wrong with being a follower.Only if-your opinion is valued and held as as important as the leader's. Only if- you are treated as an individual with a brain and with strength and with power, and not as some useless mindless being. Only if-you hold your own, do not bend against your principals and beliefs for anyone else. I think you get what I'm saying.
Second- People label me as a follower (again nothing wrong with it) because I'm a certain type of person. I don't particularly mind that. What I do mind is when they assume I have no strength or opinion or will power as a person.Now this is not entirely my fault- that person may lack the insight to see the true me-or the humility to stop assuming and find out.

But here's where I come to the BIG realization part- why do people think this about me? Yeah, sometimes they just take one look at me and think that because of the way I dress... But there's more to it than that. A LOT more. It's the type of behavior and mannerism's, including my speech, that I put out that gives people that impression.
Am I behaving in a confident manner? (not conceited or overdoing it) Am I acting and talking like a child of HaShem? Am I firm in my belief and not easily or quickly convinced to change my opinions (as long as my opinions not wrong and I know they are)?
If we are not the above, people will see that and some will understand and not treat us negatively, and some won't and will unintentionally treat us as I described before, and some will understand and choose to treat us in a "less than" way. And let's understand something-just because someone treats us as "less than" themselves, it doesn't make them a bad person. No fault makes anyone a bad person. Just as we may tend to the opposite of pride and conceit, they may tend to the opposite of doubt and a lack of self-confidence. And the other way around. :)

I tried the best I could to make sense of this- I feel like its one big jumble in my brain. But hopefully it'll clear up-and G-D always shows us the path, His way, and what we need to get rid of, gain, and keep.
Blessing to you all!

Yay! Giveaway!

2010-09-03T17:41:00.000-04:00

Olive Tree at (of)HorseFeathers is having a giveaway of makeovers and photos and more to celebrate 200 followers!!! I'm excited, so go over and check it out!!!

Crazy Beautiful Mess

2010-08-30T18:17:00.000-04:00

I'll admit it. I really don't feel like doing anything. I've been in the mood (for weeks) where I can quote Pumba and say, "After a long day of doing nothing, its feels good to kick back and relax." I think the only way I'm going to get over this is if I admit it, and accept where I'm at right now. Because I've been trying to fight it-but another thing and one comes along to knock me right back down. And I don't think the moral is, "Keep getting up", I think the moral to this story is, "Stop fighting the flow". So that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to take things one little step at a time, as much as it kills me, and do what comes along, without beating myself up about not doing something every single second of every day.
And granted, I'm better at doing this than I was when I was younger, but every now and then I realize that there's still ground to be conquered in this area. You know how just when you think you've overcome something, and you have one less fault to battle, the biggest test of all comes along and shows you that you're not perfect? "Pride comes before the fall". That is so true.
I'm generally not a prideful person- I can be self righteous and as Severus Snape would have it, "an insufferable know it all". But in truth, I'm on a journey to become humble, without having a lack of self confidence, which I can also tend to suffer from. See, there's a balance. You can be humble without being a pushover, and you can have self confidence without being conceited. But isn't 'finding the balance' a goal in all area of life? At least, its mine. And may G-D help me!

On a lighter note, August is almost over, my life is a crazy beautiful mess, and I'm learning to go with it. Because if I fight the crazy mess, I just might miss the beautiful in-between. Yeah ,that was definitely a lighter note :P

blessings to all!

Observations on Becoming~ August 29

2010-08-29T01:10:00.000-04:00

"Well, hello there Sunday! Rather early, isn't it?"
"I was just about to say the same to you," replied Sunday, looking dark and grumpy.
"Ha ha. Well, you know I haven't been myself lately-without even myself knowing why, recently. Of course, there were reasons before, but last week-let's just say I solved a mystery."
"Do I look as if I care much about your mysteries? Shouldn't you be in bed?"
"Well, well, well, for someone who says he doesn't care much about my mysteries, you are surely very nosy!"
"No need to get all defensive-you know that its late, and if your so keen with mysteries you'd have figured out that I'm tired. I've been used so much by you lately," Sunday complained, letting out a yawn.
"Well, I can't help it if the weeks are flying by for me! With so much to do-"
"Are you speaking from inside your head? Because I haven't sensed any productivity or accomplishment when I come around."
"You do realize you come after Shabbat, don't you, Sunday? Its not like I'm particularly keen on work on a Saturday night."
"No need to stick your nose in the air again-but really, what has gotten in to you?"
"Besides experienceing my first official grieving period? And having other..personal family problems, not to mention *cough* monetary problems."
"What are you getting all mysterious about? Of course I know all about that. But its not the end of the world-and you're usually so chipper. There's something else, isn't there?"
"Well, I don't profess to be perfect-I have a good, decent amount of my own personal *cough* personal emotional/mental problems."
"Mental problems? You don't say? You wouldn't happen to be going insane, now would you?"
"I don't know. I really don't know...All I know is that I'd like a getaway, or a week of straight sleep and brainwash-one or the other, at least! But heaven known none of those are possible."
"Come now, don't sigh. You rest on Shabbat, don't you?"
"More like distract myself. I feel nearly distracted half the time. I know part of it has got to do with the mystery I solved today, but I know part of its not. I think I'm just tired out-or experiencing a fit of extreme laziness.But that's not likely..."
"Nooo...of course it isn't."
"Why are you smiling!?"
"Me!? Smiling?! Never! You know I'm downright concerned!"
"Sure. You know, I think I'll talk to Monday. She'll know how I feel-people hate her so much that she has plenty of time to think, all by herself, without having to take care of people, since they avoid her. She'll know what its like to be out of sorts for long periods of time. You-well, you're just GRUMPY! Until sun rise, that is. Then you're just a ball of sunshine! Unconcerned about anyone-anything-about my feelings! And you say you're here to help me ease into the week-well you just poke fun at my problems-after snapping at me! "
"Now, what are ya stomping off for-Agh, whatever. No one asked her to be up this late anyway. She should know I'm grumpy at this time...."
"Oh and another thing- don't be so eager to arrive next week-I'm going to be prolonging my week with WORK! Then we'll see who's been most productive!"

Observations on Becoming~ August 15

2010-08-15T20:17:00.000-04:00

Its another Sunday! I can hardly believe it but I'm glad-besides the fact that this time passing so fast leaves me winded and with not as much as I would like done each week. *sigh* Anyway, let's talk of things that don't make me try not to be stressed out. :p

Well, I've been posting a lot about other people, situations, or virtues, and not very much about myself, personally. Well, lately I've been thinking about appreciating myself! If we have a healthy respect and love for ourselves, perhaps it would help us to not slip into pity-parties/self-deprecation or pride/vanity. Very often, pride is a cover up for a lack of healthy respect and love for the creatures G-D's created us to be. And so are pity-parties. You can be confident and humble. There is no need for extremes :) Of course this is much easier said than done. : p

Myself, I tend towards pity parties. Indeed, I used to have them very often as a child. :p
"Katherine (of course, I am never actually called that, but of course I won't slip and let you find out my real name *grins*), please clean your room!"
*mutters under breath while deep in the closet* "I'm always cleaning my room and no one ever helps me. I'm treated like Smea in Nicholas Nickleby, or Dobby in Harry Potter."

Of course, I never said anything like that.... : p Ok, ok, I perhaps did, but please know it wasn't founded on truth and my parent's never treated me like that. :p But, back to our topic *coughs*

Anyway, I just wanted to say- we can appreciate ourselves! Aren't we made in His image? Hasn't He created us as beautiful creatures?? :) Let's not be narcissistic, and let's not be the queen bee of pity parties. :) And as you see I used extremes, to example how those are extremes. : P

I really don't know what else to observe. : p But enjoy and have a good week! I'll be joining a blog party and this week is the week of fun!!! WOOT! And the next week is going to be even better! Yay! My dearest deary dear is coming for almost a whole week! SO I hope your August is as great as I hope mine to be :)

blessings!
Katherine

Awesome awesome awesome

2010-08-12T13:48:00.000-04:00

I can't think of another or better title for this post. Earlier this week was Rosh Chodesh Elul-the last month of the Hebrew year. *GASP* Yes, yes, time flies. It has the wings of eagles. Anyway.....

I happily attending, for the first time in my life, a drum circle. For women. But I won't describe it. There are three sisters, very dear mentors of mine-basically related (not by blood, but by love and all that good stuff) that did a very good job of it. And the great thing is, they did it together! Without knowing it *grins secretly*

My mom posted about it, while mentioning
a magickal meliss who's incredible post about it also touched a
Village Wise Woman, who had written her own beautiful post.

I hope you checked those posts out, so you can agree with me when I sigh and say, "What amazing women! And what an AMAZING G-D!" Baruch HaShem for that time, this month, and all that is to come, and that has passed. I will say that for me I just simply enjoyed the singing and drumming, and I really tapped into my "deep spiritual side" :p

Yesterday morning, I was worshiping and thinking about all that is going on in my family and personally, and a word came to me. A word that is so loosely used that the mention of it doesn't give people enough shivers.

HOPE

Confident Expectation.

Don't take it for granted. Don't forget it. Don't give it up. Without hope, all is lost. Without hope, there's no goal, nothing to reach for, nothing to trust in. Without hope there is nothing to hold on to-we can let everything fall away, because its not worth it. That's where we need hope. Do you see how essential it is? I think its second most important to faith, which comes after love.

"There are three things that are left- faith, hope, and love. Pursue love!" 1 Cor. 13-14

Grace Like Rain: End of the Summer Blog Hop And Giveaway!

2010-08-09T14:27:00.000-04:00

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Observations on Becoming!!!- August 8!!!

2010-08-08T01:56:00.000-04:00

I am so excited its Monday so I can write observations on becoming!!! I have come to so enjoy this meme of mine. I really like it. Even if I write it at 1:02am. As I would never do *coughcough*
At any rate, I am excited because I have some lovely topics this Sunday.
Ahem. I just realized I previously stated that it is Monday. Please forgive my 1am brain. I assure you I will keep vigilant watch for any more "slips". To resume my post...

This week has been very remarkable. The thought struck me that ever since I begun my weekly observations on becoming post, so many things happen each week. But I reason that that's just because I now make mental notes of my thoughts more diligently and I use whatever has happened during the week to base my posts on. Because, of course, what else would they be about? :)

There's a word that I've wanted to scream. Actually, make that several phrases. We'll start with the first one. "THANK YOU!!!!!!" A thank you to my cousin who has invited my brother to spend the night with him several times, therefore providing my brother with some male cousin bonding time. Which I am so so happy about. Because I know how much that is needed-a universal need sometimes ignored. To be more specific- bonding time. :) Remember love...

My second thank you goes to loving and kind family members and dear friends. Once again, during another hard week, they have proven themselves so thoughtful and so-there for us.
My third thank you to Ibuprofen and books. They have brought me through physical and mental pain this week. Though it took my mother convincing me to take pills, and mental effort to focus on the pages, without them I might have gone a bit insane-well, more insane than I did go. I know, I can admit to my usage of bad grammar. :p

The second phrase I've been wanting to scream is "Baruch HaShem!!!!" I have seen His hand work in my life and the lives around me this week in powerful ways. And I experienced the power of prayer. Though my silly self hesitates saying the following, because it sounds a bit like bragging, I will say that I believe one of the breakthroughs I saw this week was because of the prayer's I offered up to HaShem. Yes, He'll work whether I pray or not, but I do think someone needs to believe, to trust, and to supplicate. To make room for Him when there's little made or left. I don't feel that I can explain it rightly, but I hope you understand.

Friendship. This week I've been so touched by one friend in particular- her art, her love, and her friendship have deeply deeply touched me. I hope to be able to go into this (a word which here indicates friendship) more in another post, but for now go read her blog, admire her art, and let her know what you think. I'd like to hear it too, perhaps. :)

Well, my dear readers, this is all I have to say this week. I hope you all have a glorious one and enjoy every moment! GOOD and BAD. :):):)

bLeSsInGs,
KaThErInE

Character Connection:Thomas (Tommy) Beresford

2010-08-05T18:43:00.000-04:00

Hosted by the lovely Jen at The Introverted Reader, Character Connection is a way to weekly write about the character's that you connect to or love, or both, in whatever way you want. Sounds like fun, eh? So let's get to it...

Earlier this week I read The Secret Adversary by Agatha Christie, the first in her Tommy and Tuppence series. My friend here connected to Tuppence this week, and when thinking of who I'd connect to, I remembered how much I like Tommy and how he and I are alike.

Tommy Beresford is often described with words such as slow, thoughtful, factual,thorough, sensible, or described as doing things such as thinking things through, doing things thoroughly, bringing up the facts, or being realistic. I personally admire these attributes, and feel sympathy for how people (in the book I mean) sometimes view Tommy, because he is so slow. I feel sympathy for him because I'm often thought of as slow, and negative (when I bring up the facts or obstacles) and I am perhaps too thoughtful at times. I cannot claim to be very thorough, but anyway.... :p So I connected to Tommy not only because I could sympathize with him, but because I liked how everyone realized that his slowness was valuable, very valuable. Perhaps one day that will happen to me :p I jest, fellow readers, I jest.

Top Ten Picks:Favorite Male Literary Character's and Top Ten Favorite Books of all Time

2010-08-05T18:07:00.000-04:00

*i'm using my mother's computer so no top ten picks picture :p*

Another Top Ten Picks topic, hosted and created by Jillian at Random Ramblings. I didn't get to do last weeks, so I'm doing it, since I found out you can do past topics and still link up-on the specific topic's post! :) So I'm going to do Top 5 of this topic, and Top 5 of this weeks topic, which is Top Ten Favorite Books of All Time.

Gilbert Blythe. Anne's longtime secret (or maybe not so secret) admirer-er, a one in a thousand young man, and of course he must be good looking, or else Josie Pye wouldn't have bothered, I'm sure. :p If you don't know who Gilbert is, you MUST read the Anne of Green Gables series, by L.M Montgomery. Not just for him, of course. *secretly grins*
Klaus Baudelaire. I like Klaus for one reason and one reason only. His amazing ability to read thousands (or was it hundreds?) of books and remember their contents. Jealous I am, you say? No, I am an admirer-er. :) And of course, any of the three Baudelaire children can be admired for their capabilities and their extreme endurance during a series of unfortunate events.
William Sullivan from The Lamplighter. "He's a dream!" is a phrase that can be used to basically describe Willie. But of course he's only a dream because he has a deeper foundation of character, love, and he is always himself. The Lamplighter is not a well known book. Its one of those things I marvel at-how can people not have read or heard of this lovely, fascinating, awesome book? So I've taken it upon myself to spread the word. Find this at your library, or an online bookstore (even amazon). If not, listen to it for free at Librivox.
Mr.Knightley from Emma. who doesn't have an Austen man on their list? :p Mr.Knightley has been my favorite since I saw the 1995-6 movie adaptation of Emma. When I saw the (2009?2010?) version it was cemented. His sense of humor is, I think, what makes us so perfect for each other :p Joking aside, Mr.Knightley is such a true gentleman, and has so much character (and not such a bad judge of it either;) he is really admirable. You see, I often ask three questions when considering characters. 1-If I met them in real life, would I like them or admire them the same? 2-If they are imaginary (as in fanciful, for example, character's in Alice in Wonderland), do they have a point to their lightness? 3-Are they handsome or intelligent? or both? :p ok that last one is doubtful, but nonetheless, in Mr.Kinghtley's case I can answer the first and third question quite satisfactorily.
Edmund Pevensie. I have always ( I think) liked Edmund because he made a mistake, was forgiven, and learned his lesson so so well. Once he got over his faults, he made for quite a nice young man, adding some wisdom to his brother and sisters.

Now for my Top 5 Favorite Books of all Time

Elsie Dinsmore. I am just so attached to the Elsie Dinsmore series, but the first one especially. This is the book that got me into reading, and I can't be grateful enough to Martha Finley for that.
The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe. This book just fascinates me. Brings me to tears, to laughter, and back to reality, yet lifts me to the heavens. It is so versatile in its age group, and the moral point is just so mind-blowing (if you're a christian or messianic).
Sense and Sensibility. I'm getting to feel I should add a label just for this book because I'm constantly mentioning it! I cannot stop saying how much I love this book. I connect to the character's, I love the plot- I could go on and on. But I think it's enough to add it to this list.
The Lamplighter. I obviously cannot stop mentioning this book. I think its simply wonderful. It really is. Its really really is.A story about a girl, a generous man, a friendly boy,and basically-when people touch each others lives. What could be better?
The Pickwick Papers. Humor has to be my second favorite genre in any category. I cannot get enough. And I won't even add a yet to that. "A day without laughter is a day wasted". Well, during your reading of this book, no day will be wasted. Its the ultimate classic comedy. A must read for humor-lovers.

There's my five of each! Go link up before the next topic comes!

Emily's Cancer Blog: A must read blog

2010-08-03T13:59:00.000-04:00

Emily's Cancer Blog: Hospital fun: "EDIT 16:48 - Please look to the right and vote on my new poll. I want my mother to start a blog about her side of this journey...but she isn..."

Observations on Becoming~August One

2010-08-01T22:13:00.000-04:00

Since Google is giving my computer problems, I feel so disconnected from blog-world!! But I'm trying to still keep up with you all, and I hope you're still checking back here.
Right now I'm full of so much love, and frustration. This, of course, makes me feel like a bundle of mismatched hand-me downs, or a multi-media package. Let's talk about frustrations.
As young ladies in our parent's houses, we can be of such help to them, in so many ways. We can cook, clean, watch younger siblings, do secretary work, be cheerful and bright, and most of all compliant and respectful. Why are the most important things always the hardest?? :p We can even assist them financially.
But there is a lot we can't do. These things vary in every family, so I won't bother naming them, as they can be quite private or complicated. But I'm sure we can all think of examples that apply to us. And these situations are sometimes hard-when we want something to happen but can't do anything about it.When we don't want something to happen, and still can't do anything about it. When we want to help, but can't. When we tried to help, but it didn't go well. When as children we have to endure situations and problem's, helplessly.

All these things can be frustrating-and that's natural. How do we deal with this frustration? How do we cope with uncontrollable circumstances?
I have come to only one conclusion. Trust in G-D. Does it sound too simple? Maybe. But a lot of the answers to life's most frustrating problems are so simple. Frustratingly simple at times. But SO so powerful. So fundamental. So life-changing.

My last observations on becoming was about remembering love. Well now I want to talk about love holding people together. Because since last Sunday, I have seen SO much love shown to us by family and by my friends. Thank you to those who have felt sympathy for us (you know who you are ;) Thank you to those who have been here with us helping us with material things (you know who you are too ;). I want to give a personal thank you to my friend who was there for me, in the wee hours of the night, comforting and cheering me (you know who you are!). And I want to thank my parent's, for being so strong, so sensitive, and so loving. For knowing that this family can stick together with love, by love, and for love, no matter what. I LOVE YOU!!!!!

Well folks, my dear dear dear friend brought me tons of books today to read during this last month of summer (I CAN"T BELIEVE IT!!!) so my literary blog will be full, if I can get to posting on it, and I'll be working on the video for this project. I want to do an End of Summer Memoir. Then you'll all know what I've been up to (hopefully its not too exciting for the delicate constitutions out there ;p)

Blessings and love!
Katherine

Well, Here I am

2010-07-30T14:40:00.000-04:00

My last post wasn't very cheerful, of course. But here I am not a week later and in a better frame of mind, though there is that constant grieving pain. I was thinking yesterday that I can't imagine being the grasper of grief on a bigger scale-what must that be? I can't imagine it, and I wish it on no one. But who escapes it? I was thinking Wednesday that grief kind of seems like death-but while you're still alive.Truly, it is the biggest emotion that comes from a death, a loss. They are irrevocably connected. And though my amount of grief is nothing to those who have experienced the death of a human loved one, it is still grief.
But, as my mother says, we will be fine as long as we have each other. And we do :) Plus a wonderful amount of incredible family and friends. We are going about our usual daily lives-well, now that I think about it, our days have not been usual at all.

Well, when it rains it pours. Its been drizzling for us for a long time, but Sunday night it started POURING and didn't stop for about three days. Now the storm is past (I hope) and we are left cleaning up the mess and rubble left. For me personally it rained in a lot of areas, but I also had great comfort in others. May G-D help us!
We have been to the pool twice this week, for the first time in more than a year, and it was very nice. Yesterday my brother and I went, and I am so sore now!! :p
I must go attend to some things, but hope to post later and almost definitely Sunday, since that is the day for observations on becoming.

Blessings to you all!
Katherine

(of) HorseFeathers: Get Cash (without a regular job)

2010-07-29T21:34:00.000-04:00

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Zi-Zi

2010-07-26T21:16:00.000-04:00

He never grew very much more than how big he is in this picture. Which is understandable since we recently celebrated his 1st birthday. Because of a disease that turns dogs inside's and intestines into mush, he had to be put down last night, before midnight. In a room full of sobbing people and hands all over his body, he was stuck with a needle that caused him to never be able to see another day, or lick another person, or wake me up in the morning.

I can't see to write-I'll write again later this week.

Observations on Becoming~ July 25

2010-07-25T21:18:00.000-04:00

Remember Love
Sometimes, with our family and close friends, we forget why we "deal with them". We forget the foundation for our relationship (in family at least). That is, LOVE. We forget how much we love them, so we begin to take them for granted, become impatient and less tolerant, and begin to wonder, if we care-what's at the root of this? I personally believe that a lack of love is. No, let me rephrase that. A forgetfulness of love. Because no matter how irritable we can be with our family, we still love them, no matter how irritable they can be with us :p But when we take the time to remember love, things become a bit easier, we become more forgiving, and the "deal with these people" becomes a "live and learn with my loved ones". Ok, maybe it isn't so smooth and easy as that, but you get my point :)
This is also applicable in our relationship with HaShem. We can, and do, become too busy, and we forget the root of it all-Him. And He is love. Don't forget- don't forget-don't forget. And if you do- remember. Remember Love.

Checking some new features! Hope they prove useful!

2010-07-19T22:27:00.002-04:00

Ah! My new gadgets aren't working! Oh well.

Observations on Becoming~ July 19

2010-07-19T22:25:00.000-04:00

I'm a little embarrased. One, because I can't spell embarresed right, and need to use spell check. Second, and most importantly, that I couldn't remember if I was supposed to post my observations on becoming on Sundays, or Mondays. And just my luck, it was Sunday. :p But that's ok, because Sunday and Monday are good posting days for me. Well, if you call posting at 10 o'clock at night "good posting", then it is. Why am I posting so late? (I know no one really care's, but I'm using the question as a bounce-off for my post) Well...

Things aren't always what you expect them to be....
Is what I'm learning this summer. For starter's, I had all these great plans for productivity and "getting things done" kind of plans. Well, half of me did.The other half said, "To trash with the plans! I'm going to relax!" Well, which side do you think won? Comments welcome.

In friendship too...
My naturally selfish nature, thought that a friendship would be all about ME!!!! Of course, I didn't consciously think that, but I soon found out that friendship isn't about getting my needs met, so consequently I then realized that that is what I thought. Yeah....not a flattering realization. But, as a friend of mine said, it is what it is, and as I say, or have been saying lately, you live and learn, right? Comment's welcome here too. :p

Driving me mad...
Well, I have FINALLY finished my driving manual. *wipes forehead* Of course, this is only the beginning.I want to read it through a couple more times, and then comes the test, actually learning how to drive, and etc etc until I'm 18 and get my license. Why is it driving me mad? Well it isn't, I'm just mad and going to be driving. Wow, I'm really corny tonight, aren't I? Ok, Ok comments welcome here too...maybe ;)

Starting all over..again..and again...and one more time...
You know when everything just seems so mushed up, from your very days (can't remember what day it is or even what day it was that you forgot what day it was) to your very actions (do something before doing something else regretting it, but still doing it the next day) to your thoughts (one moment thinking of the oil spill, the next thinking of how you have a burn on your finger from making fried chicken in oil) to your words (forgetting what you're going to say, stuttering, and then bursting into laughter) to your whole confused demeanor. Yeah, I don't know why I've been like this, but I kinda like it- takes the stress out of things.And it makes things more carefree and summery. Yeah, I know, you're thinking, "What?!" But don't worry, I'm a control freak at heart, so it won't be long until I'm doing none of the above. :P I joke, I joke.

Well, there are my startling, incredible, thought provoking observations on becoming! What's the main thing I've learned? Its not about me. And to keep an eye on the calendar so I can actually remember what day it is.

Blessings!

Top Ten Picks:Favorite Books to Movies

2010-07-14T22:07:00.000-04:00

Go check out hostess Jillian's picks for her weekly meme! And join in and link up!

BBC's recent adaptation of Jane Austen's Emma was simply fabulous!!!! I cannot admire it enough. It was-really really good. Very good. See? I can't stop admiring it. A must watch! They have it on youtube. I've written about it here. Did I like the book or movie better? Well, the book is much richer, but I'd watch the movie more times than I'd watch the boo-ahaha, I mean, read the book. I should rephrase that- I have watched the movie more times then I've read the book.
I can't remember what year this excellent adaptation of Louisa May Alcott's classic book Little Women was produced in, but all I know is that it is such a good, homey movie. I must have watched it a million times. Don't believe me? I can tell you the very first line of dialouge in the movie. "Marmee's home!" Book or movie? Book, definitely. But this is about my favorite books to movies, or movies to books, so...

I have to say that the 1995 or 1996 adaptation of Jane Austen's Sense and Sensibility is really good. I mean, the cast is amazing- great acting, and its just a classic. Though I hear that the new adaptation is more accurate, and I do think it has a lot of great aspects and other things, but I can't feel about it how I feel about this adaptation :p Book or movie? Book, though the newer adaptation is a great light watch, if you don't feel like watching this seemingly longer version, or reading the book.

Number 4- Mansfield Park. I prefer this version, I much much prefer this adaptation to the 1995 one. Though its not exactly accurate and etc etc, it has a lot of faults, but I still like it. Book or movie? Book!!! Much better than the movies. People get the wrong idea about Fanny in the movies- you must read the book!

David Copperfield. I'm not sure which year or anything, I just know that there are known British actors in it, and the guy that does Harry Potter-David something ( I know I'm butchering this) plays David Copperfield as a boy. This is a great adaptation-very long, but very accurate. And good-excellent. Book or movie? I'd say movie. This adaptation that is. :)

The 1990-something adaptation, the only adaptation, I think, of Elizabeth Gaskell's classic Wives and Daughters, is really really good. I'm reading the book now, and there are some thing's that aren't accurate in the movie, but its still so good that you can't complain or be upset. The movie has an incredible cast-its just altogether excellent.

I almost forgot about this just because its like second nature to me- such a part of myself that this is the best Pride and Prejudice adaptation and so much like the book that they're one and the same, I think.

I can't rave enough about BBC's adaptation of Jane Eyre. It's really awesome. Must watch! Click the link there to read my previous rave about it and get the link to see it on youtube. Yeah, I didn't realize until recently that we have the BBc channel. So I see recent adaptations on youtube. :p

A Little Princess. Warner Brother's adaptation. Really really good. REALLY really really good. :) Book or movie? book. Why? I don't know-the book just has something really magical about it.

The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe. I think everyone knows what I'm talking about when I talk about the most recent movie adaptation of this book. Its awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Book or movie? Both!

And there are my top ten! Go link up!

Oh, I forgot to Mention...

2010-07-13T17:34:00.005-04:00

Since I've changed my blog name and look, I haven't written a post exactly explaining why I changed my name, why I chose Observations on Becoming, and etc.

And yesterday, I forgot to mention that today is my 2 year Blogaversary!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am so thankful for all my readers, and comments. I'm pretty sure I would have deleted this blog a long time ago if no one had taken the time to read my words and think them worthwhile. SHALOM AND BLESSINGS TO YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know bloggers usually have some kind of event to celebrate their anniversaries, but I haven't had time or thought to conjure something up, especially as there are already so many parties going on. So I'm just going to post about why I changed my name and all. :):):)

Akeret haBayit in Training was a breakthrough name for me-I had gone through so many, and this one was "the one". But earlier this year, I got to thinking that though I loved my blog name, it didn't really encompass all my blog was about, or really the main point of it. Yeah, I am an akeret habayit in training-learning to keep my home and be the foundation of it, when I have one. But that's not all I'm doing. And really I barely posted about that *blushes* I mostly posted about nonsense or my latest discovery in life-my latest revelation or what's been on my mind, about life.
But not just any kind of life- a life of living, learning, and becoming who HaShem has created me to be. I'm unique, but I'm still developing myself. Which is really a lifetime process, but there are times in your life when you develop more than others, and I think your teen-young adult years is one of those times, naturally.
As you see under the word becoming in the header, there's a word by word definition, which I complied myself from several different online dictionaries, because I wanted to really get across what I mean by becoming.

The word observations is pretty self explanatory as I've said before, but let me expound a bit. All my life I have been an observer, a philosopher. Like Mary Bennet in Pride and Prejudice *wink* But anyhow, that's how I've always viewed my musings and pondering's, and that's why I chose observations, instead of musings or pondering's *another wink*

Well, ladies, that's all! I hope this next year of blogging will be even better!!!!! And another shout out to all of you! Thanks so much! And last but not least, Baruch HaShem! (praise G-D)

Observations on Becoming~July 12

2010-07-12T15:40:00.003-04:00

Its time again, though I can hardly believe it, for my observations on becoming. I made a, in my opinion, decent looking banner for these posts, but because I have to use the old editor, its resolution is terrible, and it looks-less than decent. *sigh*

Life is made of the little things

I think I mentioned something along these lines last week. It keeps recurring in my life lately-all the little things. We can keep waiting for something big to invest in-but the little things pile up or fade away, until we wake up and realize-it's the little things that matter.

Rainy days are soothing to my soul

The peaceful rain. I never thought I'd connect to it so much-I've always been moved by thunderstorms. But now-its the calmer rain that speaks to me. Of rest.Of peace. Of taking time. Of enjoying the moment.

I'm very tired :P

A Rainy Day in July

2010-07-10T23:09:00.002-04:00

"When it rains it pours"

At least, when you're only looking at the rain. But...

"The sun is always shining"

Did you know the sun is always shining? Literally? Rain and storms are only passing clouds-the sun is always shining above. If you're looking from above, instead of from below. Heavenly perspective,anyone?

It is easy to view situations and circumstances as if we are victims of it. But we can choose how we will look at things and by our behaviors, how they will affect us. We can trust in HaShem or we can worry. We can try to be cheerful and look on the bright side, or throw a sullen or pity party. We can believe that "all things work out for good" or we can doubt and fear and 'hope for the worst" ;)

Choices, choices

Its so hard. I won't pretend. I believe it really takes prayer,dedication to change our mindset, and perseverance and endurance. To what? To make a choice. To make the right choice. These attitude and perspective, though they may seem too difficult or unimportant, they-for lack of better wording at the moment, "make up the fabric of our lives". All my quoting makes me think of another quote that says "quotation is a substitute for wit" or something like that :p I think you get it.

On a lighter note, its been raining almost non-stop today. Which is great because its been so humid and HOT. Hopefully it will cool down now. :):):)
The Laughter is the best medicine" parade has been postponed, just so you all know, in case you were thinking of doing it.
I think I have no other news to share...so I will conclude :)

Shalom u'vracha! (Peace and blessings)
Katherine

Laughter is the Best Medicine Day 2

2010-07-08T19:39:00.004-04:00

Some houses have relatively even and flat ceilings. Some don't. I happened to reside in one of these houses for a few days at one point in my long and full short uneventful life. Indeed, I decided to jump on a bed one night under a slanted ceiling. There was just about enough s[ace for a..two year old to safely jump on the beds. Unfortunately I was not, and am not, a two year old. I think. But, none the less, I impulsively decided to jump on this bed. It was vastly entertaining, I can assure you. Jumping up and down with my back bent and head carefully avoiding contact with the ceiling. But, alas, this was not to be. I soon found myself on the bed- laying ,not jumping, trying to keep consciousness amid the laughter that was overflowing from myself and other's who shall remain unnamed.

Go link up! There's limited time, two giveaways so far, and more linkers wanted!

What I have been doing :)

2010-07-07T15:35:00.012-04:00

It seems not so very long ago, but when school ended and summer hadn't even began, I posted about what I'd be doing this summer.Now, since its about to head into officially mid-summer, it's time to post about what I have been doing this summer. How time flies! Before I continue you should know that this post was inspired by Eldarwen :)

Reading.

The thing I'm appreciating most this summer is time to read! I'm now out of books, but using Librivox to listen to some classics :):):)

Listening

To music, to teaching, to people, to the sounds of nature, to the tv and movie's [;)], to my dreams, to the call to work, to pray, to make order, to follow order, to change, to grow, to have FUN, to enjoy each moment, to live.

Writing

(Be sure to enlarge this by clicking here because its worth reading) Writing fiction, writing from my heart, writing for Him, wanting to write, learning to write, having to write, writing, not writing, writing in my diary... pretty much miscellaneous.

Posting

I thought it'd be funny to use this photo of two suffragettes posting a poster in New York city. Anyway...I've been posting a lot. Well, more than usual. By usual, I mean more than did when I was in studies. Which is perfectly natural :) I've been posting mostly on my book blog, and trying to post more here. But I have been enjoying it! I missed it-*sigh of contentment*

Sharing with friends

Most of us, I think all of us, have people we can be completely free and comfortable with. Our mothers, brothers, sisters, best friend, cousin, it can be anyone. To be able to just enjoy with them-reminiscing, laughing, teasing, inside jokes, and learning about each other-sharing- is such a rich and relaxing thing.

Having Visits and Conversation with Family

This past-time is close to my heart- I love spending time with people I love-laughing, talking, crying, sharing, joking, eating, watching movies- anything that reminds us of that connection of blood, history, or relationship. In my particualr family, I know that you don't have to be a blood relative to be relatives-I mean, one of the most important connections on earth is of husband and wife, and they are not blood related! Therefore-friends can be family and family can be friends.

Watching Movies whenever(almost)

This is fun. Usually, when you're not on vacation from school, you have to wait until the weekends or the evening, once in a while, to watch movies. But when you are on vacation, you can watch movies in the morning, afternoon, and evening, and late evening, and midnight, and afterwards. Now I'm not saying I do that- the time depends on the day. But I can watch movies more frequently and with less time restraint. ;) and of course, with people. :):):)

This is all for now-this post has taken me forever. Feel free to do something similar, and look for part 2 soon!

Back to Blogging & Laughter is the Best Medicine!

2010-07-07T14:38:00.005-04:00

Yes! Thank the L-rd! :) Blogger hasn't been letting me post-when, ironically, I most want to. So I put my editor back to the old one, instead of the updated one, and I am now able to post. Yay!

Today I have something really fun to post! The lovely Rebecca is having another blog parade! Her last one was Eudamonia, total fun, and this one is totally fun as well!

The rules are- tell a funny story on your blog, then link up on hers! You can do a post for each of the days (Today, tomorrow, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday) or on one, or two, or three, or just some of the days. But you can only do one post a day for the parade. Then link up! Oh, and guess what?! There's a totally awesome giveaway TOO! Check out what you might win :) Link up for each post you do, and each post counts as an entry to win!

Laughter is the Best Medicine Blog Parade

One of my cousins moved to the country last year. We went to visit him one day, but my parent's found that we were soon lost. We called my aunt and she directed us, and then we tried to find our way there again. On our way, we passed a Sheetz, made a few jokes about its weird name, and moved on. There was beautiful scenery and great conversation full of laughter. Eventually we were on a hill going downwards. We saw another Sheetz and rolled with laughter as we joked about it being the same Sheetz we passed a few minutes before. It was.

I hope that story made you laugh as much as it does me. As Count Olaf says, played by Jim Carrey in the movie, A Series of Unfortunate Events, "Imagine my surpreese!"

That's all for this post! I hope to post some more funny stories for the blog parade. For now I have to catch up on some posting now that I'm able to post again! :)

Observations on Becoming~ July 4

2010-07-04T20:13:00.000-04:00

Hello everyone! Two Monday's ago I said I was going to do something new last Monday. But I didn't get to it. And that was a good thing because I had this idea today. Every Sunday I'll post my most recent Observations on Becoming! If you are not clear on what observations on becoming are, an observation is a-well, the definition is under the word on my header. And so-well, the header is pretty explanatory. Me and getting into unnecessary things! That reminds me about this post....Introducing, observations on becoming. (p.s-there will probably be a banner to go along with it...just have to make it, hee hee)

Men of reputation. These words were found in this weeks Parashah portion, Pinchas. It was talking about the tribes, and it mentioned Korach and his “assistants”, calling them “men of reputation”. Isn’t that interesting? Obviously, they were men of bad reputation. But, if you notice, it doesn’t say so there. I think that’s because when you have a reputation, its because you’re making yourself known. You’re making yourself noticed, forming an active idea (reputation) of the way people view you. So is reputation really something to be sought, whether its good or bad? Because then you have to live up to it or live it down, and neither leaves room for change and growth.

Perfectly imperfect. Some women, in literature, and perhaps even in real life, have the feminine power of charming and appearing without flaw-though they may often be very honest with their faults, that’s the very thing that makes them appear less faulty. How is this? I think its because, as Helen Andelin discusses in her books, A Fascinating Woman/Girl, the quality of child-likeness (part of which is innocence or exaggerated guilt) is attractive to men, and indeed most people of each gender. Hopefully I will be re-reading Helen’s book soon, and doing a chapter by chapter synopsis, and then you will better be able to understand what I’m talking about. J

Wordle is absolutely cool. I love words and randomizing them with color, layout, and etc delights me. My next step is to print some out.

Sometimes my life feels unproductive and useless. I get overwhelmed by the million and one things that have to be, should be, could be, and I want to be done. How do we sort this all out? How do we shove past the unnecessary to the necessary? How do we determine what we should and shouldn’t be concerned about? Because sometimes its not clear. I think we can only ask for G-D’s guidance and our parent’s advice. Both I have found and will find useful.

People are always looking for a quick fix, simple supplement, easy cover up, substitution, or even a distraction. For the work that has to be done. For the wounds that are opening wider and wider. For the hurt and destruction that is staring them in the face. For the consequences of choices, for the loss of dignity, for the inconvenience of taking responsibility. But all the cover ups and etc.etc.etc- slip away, fall away, and tear off at the slightest rustle or ruffle. But, unfortunately, the smallest ruffles and rustles are often ignored. It’s the big waves, it’s the rips, the pulls, the ginormous tugs that get those wounds to reopen completely so that they can be properly treated and healed. Get the courage, get the determination, get the discipline, get the faith, and do it.

Check this out!

2010-07-01T20:15:00.000-04:00

Character Connection: Mary (Polly) Milton

2010-07-01T19:24:00.000-04:00

Hosted by Jen at The Introverted Reader, Character Connection is a way to express how you connect to characters in a personalized way. But go read about it for yourself at Jen's great blog.

Many of you may be wondering,"Who in heaven is Mary Milton, also known as Polly?" Well, I'm here to tell you.
An Old Fashioned Girl. Not such a well known book as Little Women, but its not because Louisa May Alcott wrote something less than absolutely charming and delightful. I am still to figure out why this book isn't a renowned classic. At any rate, it is to me, and I have read it over and over and over and over again. Yeah, its that good.
There is a fantastic array of character's. But today I'm going to focus on Polly, the heroine of this story, because she's the one I connect with.
Polly, or Mary Milton, is such a darling girl! Sweet, country, old-fashioned, and virtuous-but with a temper, she is so fun to read. As a woman, she is more developed, adorable, and inspiring than ever. I would love to live Polly's life, but that being unrealistic, doing all I can to imitate it is what I do. Anyhow, enough about my dreams. ;)
I connect to Polly, because, besides living a life I would like, she is a good example of several things-virtue, modesty, etc etc, and that's what I strive to be. She always tries to look on the bright side-a lot of times for other people, and she has self initiative, intuition, motivation, and diligence. But beware, she has her faults. But you're going to have to read the book to find out what they are, because I shan't tatlle.

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Dancing in the Rain (blog party and giveaway) at Living On Literary Lane

2010-07-01T18:23:00.000-04:00

Elizabeth Rose has completely redone her blog-and I must say it looks inexpressibly delightful. Now she's having a blog party to celebrate it...along with a giveaway! How lovely is that?! So go read all about it and enter! The button's on my sidebar so click on that for details. Trust me, you want to check this out. You really do. So, there are questions you must answer to enter the blog party, which by entering means you also give yourself a chance to win the giveaway! So...go!

Have you ever run outside during a rainstorm (and if so, please describe it)? Yes, I have. But see, I was running because I had to cover up dirt and gardening tools. But it was still delightful, and I got drenched.Twice. And rain on a hot day is so refreshing and relaxing. Along with thunder and lightening.
What is your favorite Sense & Sensibility version: 2008 or 1995? Oh, hard one. There are good things about each. But I think I'll have to go with 1995.
Do you keep a journal (and if so, how many have you filled)? Yes, I do. I don't know how many I have filled, but I know I have only finished one, and am in the process of finishing my second.
What is your favorite thing about summer? People seem more cheerful and obviously active. And that everything is alive. But I dislike the heat. Just sayin.
What is your favorite classical song? Oh, tough one. I'm just going to say Fur Elise because its memorable to me.
It's your wedding day. And while you are going down the aisle (gracefully, of course), the audience suddenly bursts into singing "How Do You Solve A Problem Like ____ (your name)?" What are your emotions? Shock and pleasure. Because I would laugh, and I love humor, so it makes me pleased. Shocked because of course it would be a huge unexpected thing.
What is your favorite scene in Sense & Sensibility? Is the same scene in the movie(s) (and if so, do you like it as well)? I think my favorite scene is when, after Marianne also finds out about Edward and Lucy's "secret", she talks with Elinor and realizes that just because she's reserved doesn't mean she's heartless.
Which of Jane Austen's books is your favorite? Why? Sense and Sensibility. I relate a lot to Elinor, and I just love the style and homey feel of the settings. Its very family focused.
Describe your perfect reading "nook": A window seat with comfy pillows for my back, and a view of a small pond with willow trees. But perhaps not because I'd be so distracted by the beauty ;)
Have you ever been accused of reading a book when you were supposed to be doing chores? No, but I have read when supposed to be studying or sleeping. :)
You are on the beach, and you are wearing normal clothes (NOT a bathing suit). Do you consider jumping into the cold ocean anyway? Indeed!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do you consider yourself a matchmaker like Emma? No way.
What do you like best about my blog? What do you think is the worst? (It's always good to get feedback, so I know what to change and what to keep!) I can't answer either of those- they're too hard with such a lovely blog! But I can say I'd like a bit more bookish stuff. ;)
What are your opinions involving letters: short and brief or long and lovely? Long and lovely, preferably. But short and brief can be short and sweet, so....
What Scripture verse has encouraged you a lot recently? That's hard to answer-certain ones come to me when I need them. But I'll say that the word "hope" has encouraged me a lot recently.
Do you consider yourself an artist? If so, in what way? Yes, I do. I'm just beginning to develop that thought of myself. IN my photography and writing, and in my behaviors and personality. Though the creativity belongs to HaShem there, I express it, and I can do it artistically.
What interests you in a blog: beautiful layout or good content? Both! Quantity of beauty, and quality of content.
Do you believe in saving your first kiss for your wedding day? Yes :)
What are your opinions involving modesty? The point is to express your inside outwardly. There's not one definition. Follow where He leads.
Did you enjoy answering all these questions? Yes! Thanks Elizabeth Rose!

Top Ten Picks: Favorite Reads This Year (so far)

2010-07-01T17:47:00.000-04:00

Hosted by Jillian at Random Ramblings, Top Ten Picks is a weekly meme that allows you to explore your top ten picks of book and reading related things.

Whoa. Favorite reads. I am so glad to have an awesome friend that has lent me so many books, several different genres, this year, so that I can actually answer this question. And I'm thankful for having the miraculous self initiative to actually read. Well, maybe its not so miraculous, since I do love doing it ;)
At any rate, let me muster up my top ten favorite books I've read this year (so far). And in no specific order.

Wives and Daughters by Elizabeth Gaskell. The movie adaptation of this book has been a favorite of mine for years now. I would beg my mom if we could watch it-over and over again. Yeah, it that good. Well, reading this book has been epic for me cause I'm actually reading a book that I saw the movie to first, and its not by Jane Austen. ;) But seriously, this is a really good book-such an easy read, yet so much food for thought-if you look hard enough.
The Unauthorized Autobiography (or The Pony Party) by Lemony Snicket. I had to add this because it was hilarious-in a priceless way, and is definitely one of my favorite books ever. See? I tell you I am in love with humor. We're getting married when we grow up.
Around the World in 80 days by Jules Verne. Besides being proud of myself for having read this classic, short as it was, I found myself delightedly surprised by this book-expecting it to be extremely boring or extremely childish. I found it light, funny, and interesting.
More Love to Thee by George Prentiss. This book made such an impression on me, that I always feel as if I had read it recently. I recommend this biography to Christians and those who know how to take the good and leave the objectional (so far as difference in religion goes). Otherwise, this book deeply touched me-and changed me, I think. Change is not always fireworks or surgery, sometimes its an adjustment of a hair or going under a wave. Or some other smooth flowing thing. ;)
I thought it was just Me by Brene Brown. This book, being about shame, power, perfectionism, and taking that out of your life, was a bit hard to read at times, as it dealt with insecurities and my inner self, but it was very good. And yes, life changing. For sure.
The Fascinating Girl by Helen Andelin. An amazing, entertaining, and helpful book, it teaches young girls some things they may not know about bringing their femininity out and actually using it. Very fun, thought provoking, and easy read. Though not for children, I think.
Silent Spring by Rachel Carson. Though it had too much scientific information to keep me from burning my brain every time I read it for a long period of time, it was extremely thourough, excellently written, and action provoking. Heart breaking, yes. But good things sometimes come out of caring about things other than ourselves.
Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte. Very dark and mysterious book, but not totally deprived of cheer, happiness, or etc etc.Basically there's a lot of lessons to be learned and things to be cleared up, and I like that because it leaves room for development. I have trouble in my own writing with doing that, so I think that putting character's in the midst of an un-seemingly epic and transforming event in their lives is a good idea. :) And of course, I was glad to read a classic. :) Yeah, they make me feel accomplished....
The Narrative of the Life of Frederick Douglass by Frederick Douglass. This was an awesome autobiography. Definitely inspiring and informing. Completely honest, completely open, reflective, to the point- great read. Definite definite favorite.
Mansfield Park by Jane Austen. Last but of course not least, this was a good read, especially as I saw contrasting and a bit contradictory interpretations of Fanny in two different movie adaptations. I wanted to find out for myself what she originally was, so I did. I was not disappointed- a bit pleasantly surprised. IT is a different type-well, all of Austen's books are different in style. But because of all the "scandal" in this one, its a bit separated from the other. But its written from a nice point of view, and I know a lot of people hesitate to read Mansfield Park, but..don't. Unless of course it would be an inappropriate read for you.

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Top Ten Things-Eudaimonia

2010-06-26T23:15:00.000-04:00

This is an awesome topic that Rebecca Jane hosting a blog party about! Be sure to check out her answers at her blog, Sewing in the Past. All the things she listed make me happy too, its nice to find a kindred spirit, but now I have to think of ten different things ;) Yeah, you have to post ten things that make you happy, then link up at her blog. But you can find out the details there. Let's get started!

Top Ten Things that Make me Happy

1~Being myself, getting to know and like myself better. That makes me happy.
2~ Listening to worship music. I really love music-it makes me happy, but especially worship music.That makes me happy.
3~Finding people that enjoy doing what I enjoy doing. That makes me happy.
4~ Capturing a moment with my camera that I will treasure forever. Those usually are all natural and simple. ;) That makes me happy.
5~Writing something purposeful and from my heart.That makes me happy.
6~ Seeing family I've known for years. That makes me happy.
7~ ~~Typing makes me happy~~ Doing lots of chores when I don't feel like it. That makes me happy-after-wards ;)
8~ Reminiscing. That makes me happy.
9~ Affection from those I love. That makes me really happy.
10~ Quoting, sincerely smiling, laughing, and singing. They are kind of all one for me. They make me really happy. :)

Hope you join in! Make sure to link up if you do!

Top Ten Picks:Favorite Writers

2010-06-24T17:10:00.000-04:00

This is my first (awesome!) time doing Jillian's weekly meme, Top Ten Picks, hosted at Random Ramblings. Isn't that a pretty button? Anyway, each week there's a different top ten. This week is favorite authors, obviously. To join in just post about your favorite authors and put your link in the linky on her blog. There's no proper way to do it, so don't worry. But before you do, check out her answers by clicking on the link to her blog. Alright, let's get started with this difficult task. To make it easier, I'm not going to list them in order of greatness. :)

Jane Austen. Is that too obvious? ;) And this is pretty self explanatory :)
Charles Dickens. He.is.awesome. I mean, the intricate details, personalities, and plots? I don't think there's another author like him. I especially like how long his book The Pickwick Papers is, and yet its a comedy! I love humor, so that book is a dream.
Louisa May Alcott. Her books are just so sweet and pleasant. Little Women is a classic, and yet so lighthearted, yet real. That's what I call good writing.
L.M Montgomery. Incredible writer of personalities, humor, and depth of feeling. Because Anne of GG is intense :) A friend of mine has been reading her other books, and now I want to read some more of her work as well.
Elizabeth Gaskell. Not as well known as my first four, but as good a writer. I'm currently reading Wives and Daughters, and am itching to read Cranford :)
Martha Finley. Though even less known than the former author, her writing (a series called Elsie Dinsmore, another called Mildred Keith, and if I'm not mistaken some other books) is great for older children, I'd say 8-14, because as the books progress so do the plots and character's. And their ages :)
Lemony Snicket. Oh.my. goodness. This man is a genius, a literary genius. His writing is so so good-yeah, its all dark humor, or things that might be otherwise thought boring, but his style and way of putting things just makes it a constant laugh. And I love laughing :)
Elizabeth Prentiss. Her book Stepping Heavenward is really really good. It can bring you to tears several times, over and over. You can relate to it, feel with it. Her other books(I'm not sure how many she's authored) I don't like as much, but they are really good. I read The life and letters of Elizabeth Prentiss(by her husband George Prentiss) and she was really a remarkable lady.The book extremely blessed me.
Bronte sisters. Of course, their books are great, though I have yet to read some of them.
E.B White. I must say, I love this man's writing. It is so-I can't describe it. I'm yet to read more of his books, but Charlotte's Web and The Trumpet of the Swan brought me to tears, and I must also add I love quoting him. He's said a lot of wise things.

Welp, there we go!

Character Connection: Little Women

2010-06-24T16:23:00.000-04:00

Its Thursday, and time for another Character Connection hosted by Jen at The Introverted Reader.

I chose the book Little Women by Louisa May Alcott, because I've kind of grown up with the characters, and know how I can relate to each of them. Yes, each of them :) Ok, ok, except Amy- I really don't like her that much. But more on that another time.

Margeret (Meg) March- I connect to Meg in that I hope to get married and have my own home one day. I am also like her in that I am the oldest in my family, try to be responsible, and keep the younger ones in check ;) I also am like Meg in that I don't talk much, but I am not necessarily as quiet as Beth is.
Josephine (Jo) March- I think many writer's sympathize with Jo, and many people that have a short temper ;). I have always enjoyed reading how Jo becomes a woman in the book, but still gets into scrapes.
Elizabeth (Beth) March- I connect to Beth because she is gentle and quiet, and that's usually the words people use to describe me (I don't think they're very accurate ;). I also understand how Beth likes to stay home and gets nervous about being in public and all. I fully sympathize with that. She also likes to take things slower.

Join in! You can name character's from one book, one character, or like Jen did this week, a character you love to hate. Make sure you enter in the linky Jen's put up on her blog!

Me, Myself, Him, and Time

2010-06-23T20:27:00.001-04:00

*Just so you know, that is also the title of a song*
*Oh, and this post is an observation on becoming.You can find posts like these under the letter label, "my climb"*

Sometimes I feel like I'm over my head. I'm in a race, that's also a battle, that's also a learning experience. Talk about "figuring it out"! I've never been a "carefree" person, (much to the worry and scolding of my mom *wink*) but I'm still not a "grownup". Wow, quotation marks are really popular in this post, aren't they?
And at times, I really feel the pressure to live my life purposefully. But the thing is, as the thing is with so many things, what is living my life purposefully supposed to look like?
I can admit-I've wasted a lot of time-I procrastinate, hesitate, basically, "be lazy". And a lot of times its because I'm afraid to go too fast. And sometimes its because I want to just take it easy. What's the rush? But all this is besides the point.
I've been really thinking lately-yeah, I say my life purpose is to serve HaShem, to bring honor and glory to His name through all I do and say. But with my human mind, that reason is more difficult to use when it comes to the little things, like homemaking. What to do, what to do?
Well, I think I know. For now. And what to do-is just do it. Maybe the "emptiness", for lack of a better word, is because I'm not doing whatever it is I'm pushing to the side. I won't bother being specific here, because the list might be too long for comfort *sigh*thinks*shifts uncomfortably*decides to move on*
There's so much to do, that can be done, at this stage in my life. I mean, we all have massive amounts of potential. We all do. What we do with it is what counts.

But we can't do everything-only what we're called to. And it doesn't have to be some grand thing. It doesn't have to be anything that you think. G-D, HaShem, He is the one who makes our lives purposeful. He is the one who calls us-we don't call ourselves, we didn't create ourselves, so we can't decide our purpose. We have to look to Him for it. Into ourselves too, because we have the gifts and talents He's given us to put to use, and He's also given us a soft spot for specific things-for example, injustice, helping the poor, needy, etc etc. But ultimately, we can't create our destiny.Only decide to follow it.
We do have our power of choice, but I believe that everything happens for the best, that HaShem guides it. Our "failings", our "successes", our "work", they're all for the best. So never regret something,never boast of something. And there's another reason for each thing, as to why not to do them. 1) If we repent of our sins,"He is faithful and just to forgive us". 2) We do nothing out of our own power-He grants it all to us.
And I know that it can take a while, or a long time, to figure out what you are supposed to be doing.
But I can assure you, its very rarely far off, and more often right in front of us. It can be serving your very own family, or serving people in another country, or the neighbor, or all three. They're all as important, and I believe that we're called to ultimately serve others, as Yeshua haMashiach (Jesus the Messiah) has served us, and led a life of serving.

Now please, don't take anything I say as a rule for living, unless you feel G-D is speaking to you through it, Baruch HaShem. I do not know everything, I am just expressing myself, here, where I am at in life, and what's on my mind, from my point of view :)

Right now, its me, myself, Him, and time. I'll find my life. I probably already have found it, just need to live it.

A Young Maiden's Daybook June 21

2010-06-21T12:38:00.001-04:00

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Today… Monday, June 21, 2010/ Tammuz 8 5770
Outside my window… lovely blue sky with fluffy clouds, in the 80's , so officially too hot for me, but sunny and summery.
I am thinking… how its summer and we better get out there and start doing summery things.
I am thankful for… my closest friend.
I am wearing… my pajamas.To be explained later....
I am reading… the same thing I was reading last week.
I am creating… video ideas??
One of my favorite things… making videos.
For education this week… well, mom's teaching an art class on Wednesday. There's always something to learn in some area of life or living.
A keeper at home skill I am using/learning … doing things on assigned days. Such as doing this post on Monday's.
A spiritual lesson I’m learning… emuna.
A godly character trait I plan to work on… patience (why is it always the same ones over and over?)
For the rest of the week… convalescing from a slight cold,thus still in pajama's. Art class on Wednesday, lots of things that need to be done at random times. : D
A picture I’d like to share…

I am here to announce that this is the last time, unless I unexpectedly change my mind, that I will be doing A Young Maiden's Daybook. I will still be doing a post on Monday's, but you shall see next Monday. : D

Hey Daddy,

2010-06-20T22:08:00.000-04:00

Its not just the everyday hours you spend to earn a living for all of us. Its that you are constantly thinking of what I would like. Its that you sacrifice your comfort for me. Its that you worry about my future. Its that you give me advice and impart wisdom to me.
Its not just that you tell me you are proud of me. Its that you are always there. Its that you chose to be a part of my life. Its just that you love me.

Exclamations!

2010-06-17T12:45:00.000-04:00

Do you ever have a favorite word or phrase, that for a time you use constantly? For instance, when I think something is humorous, but I don't laugh, I say, "That's hilarious." It's one of my favorite phrases. Another example is this- let's say you stub your toe, step on a thumbtack, hit your head, try to lift something impossibly heavy, or something like that, it makes you want to exclaim. But what?! Usually people, at those times in their lives, exclaim curse words or other ~~such forms of expression~~ bad things. But, since I don't ~~want~~ like to curse, I make up words, or use old fashioned ones, such as- GOLLY!!!!!!
Yeah, its ~~the word I'm addicted to~~ my new favorite word. When I am ~~not~~ really upset, I like to use-BOLLOCKS!!!!!! : D
Why am I telling you all this? I really don't know. I thought it'd be humorous and amusing, and I love love love humor, and being amused. And using early 1900's and British "bad words" though I don't think they mean anything.And that's a good thing ;)

I know I haven't done a serious post in a while-it takes a long time for me to process things I feel deeply about into words. But I'll think of something! ;)

Meanwhile, I want to exclaim something. I am not sure that's a word, but the spell check doesn't highlight it. Anyway.....
"I'VE ACTUALLY FINISHED AN ARTICLE AND GOT IT PUBLISHED!!!!"
Please, I don't mean to brag or anything, I just think its really exciting because I've never done this before, but have always intended to. Anyway, I've mentioned Generation Pure before, and I'm happy, supremely happy to announce that the first issue is out!!! Congrats and Baruch HaShem!Check it out and look for my article, called "Really Looking on the Bright Side".
It's a beautiful day today- I have to clean the bathroom then I want to work on some thing's that you'll hopefully hear about soon : D

A Young Maiden's Daybook June 16

2010-06-16T20:02:00.000-04:00

Today… Wednesday, June 16, 2010, Tammuz 3, 5770
Outside my window… Sunset light through the haze of clouds. A bit of hazy blue sky. LOTS of foliage.
I am thinking… how important consideration of other's thought process and feelings is.
I am thankful for… my mother.
I am wearing… Turquoise, bluish green, purple skirt with trees drawn out of black ink and accented with gold. Light light bluish-turquoise shirt.
I am reading… Wives and Daughter's by Elizabeth Gaskell
I am creating… two stories.
One of my favorite things… writing.
For education this week… writing, reading,music.
A keeper at home skill I am using/learning … doing all that needs to be done at once when you don't feel like doing it.
A spiritual lesson I’m learning… still, humility. Maybe its a life long thing? : D
A godly character trait I plan to work on… patience
I am praying for… a miracle.
For the rest of the week… maintaining the garden we nearly exhausted ourselves to create.
A picture I’d like to share…

Woot woot!

2010-06-14T19:11:00.000-04:00

Olive Tree at her renewed blog, (of) HorseFeathers, is having a full blog makeover giveaway!!!!! (Partly in honor of her return, and the return of her design studio, and also cause she's awesome ;)
But enough from me, go check it out and join!!!!!!

Vacation is sweet...

2010-06-11T16:53:00.000-04:00

I realized something. Yeah, I know, that happens a lot ;) This is what I realized.

Vacation is sweet!

I've actually had time to read, post on my book blog, and do whatever comes up. I have time to realize that I need to enjoy every moment. I have time to make time. Now, I know I can and should do this at all times, vacation or not, but its nice to be freed up to make a habit ;)

There are a lot of things to occupy my time and I hope to complete a lot of projects. A few opportunities have opened up for me that I'm looking forward to. Isn't life great!? Baruch HaShem!

There's more I want to share, but I'll share it when its going on. I don't want to always be talking about what I want to do, or am going to do, but I want to do it then share the experience.

So Shabbat Shalom and a good weekend to all! And thanks for commenting on the new look and voting on the poll. Maybe I'll eventually get it professionally done, but for now, this is good.

Katherine

Um, yeah...

2010-06-11T16:20:00.000-04:00

Character Connection:Elinor Dashwood

2010-06-10T13:41:00.000-04:00

Hosted by Jen at The Introverted Reader, here is her description of Character Connection.

We all have characters we love. Let's spotlight these fantastic creations! Whether you want to be friends with them or you have a full-blown crush on them, you know you love them and want everyone else to love them too!
Be sure to post the book's title and author, and be very careful not to give away spoilers while talking about how much you love your characters.

This is my first time doing this, so I will pick the character I have the most connection with.

Elinor Dashwood from Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen.

I recently re-read Sense and Sensibility and was almost overcome because of how much I relate to Elinor, see myself in her. Though I am perhaps not as discreet, wise, and composed, Elinor is a very big part of my personality. I must admit, I am have some of Marianne as well (my mother is a Marianne) but I really connect to the eldest Dashwood daughter.
I love Elinor because she looks at the facts, and act on them, so her foundation is always secure, in a way. But she feels deeply, though she lets no one know for a long time. She thinks of others before herself, but also thinks of herself.She attempts to guide Marianne, but eventually leaves off with that, and is just there for her, which I think in that point in time, was the wisest course.
I also love Elinor because her gentle strength is not to be trifled with, and she shows that you don't have to be desperate or obvious to get your heart's desires.
This is why I connect to Elinor, but please understand I don't claim to posses all these mature qualities. ;-)
Join in Character Connection!!!

Welcome To Observations on Becoming!!

2010-06-08T16:07:00.000-04:00

What do you think of the new name and look?! I hope, really hope you like it. I feel it truly reflects the mood and meaning of this blog. Anyway, I'll put a poll up, and do a more descriptive post later. Comment if you can!

A Young Maiden's Daybook June 7

2010-06-07T13:38:00.000-04:00

Today… Monday, June 7, 2010 / Sivan 24, 5770
Outside my window… VIvid blue sky with huge puffy clouds, breezy, and only 70 degrees. Yay!
I am thinking… of how HaShem has blessed me.
I am thankful for… how HaShem has blessed me.
I am wearing… black skirt with -I really don't know what they are called, but they make it flowy. Light blue shirt.
I am reading… Number the Stars by Lois Lowry and The Cross by Day, the Mezuzzah by Night by Deborah Siegel.

I am creating… I have completed all letters, I just need stamps. I guess I'm creating a flower by practicing my embroidery.
One of my favorite things… Embroidery.
For education this week… Working on my business, writing, piano, and reading.
A keeper at home skill I am using/learning … I learned how to grind meat yesterday. Mom is going to teach me how to make a certain type of bread this week, b'ezrat HaShem (with G-D's help).

A spiritual lesson I’m learning… it's not all about me.
A godly character trait I plan to work on… Selflessness
Quote I am thinking about... "Reading a book is one form of escape.Running for your life is another." Lemony Snicket, author of A Series of Unfortunate Event's.

For the rest of the week… I'll be working on some stuff for the new blog look.
A picture I’d like to share…

The Message of Silent Spring

2010-06-05T23:16:00.000-04:00

An essay I wrote on Rachel Carson's book, Silent Spring

SILENT SPRING, a book that many say “launched the environmental movement”, was written by Rachel Carson in the 1960’s. With research and supported facts, Rachel Carson attempted to remove the blindfold from people’s eyes in regard to the chemical development and usage that was, and still is, damaging our world. In a time when so many people were, and still are, uneducated or misinformed about the power of solutions such as pesticides, insecticides, herbicides, and the chemicals themselves, this book is enlightening and sobering.
I have never read a book that was so grounded in convincing facts, research, and indisputable truths. Her writing, though sometimes emotional because of heartbreaking reality, was calm, serious, and to the point. There was no exaggeration or complicated excuses, but only the pure truth. This book reminded me not only of the gravity of the danger and troubles we are experiencing, but also that I, living in, and being a part of this world, have a responsibility to let, or not let, the destruction of our planet continue.
Here I am going to discuss, in part, the power of chemicals, and their effect on living things, as well as our natural alternatives and the consequences of the choices we make. There is no final battle, no final choice to be made, between destruction for short lived convenience, and short lived inconvenience for life. Every little decision that is made is carving out the path to our ultimate end.

"The most alarming of all man's assaults upon the environment is the contamination of air, earth, rivers, and sea with dangerous and even lethal materials." (Silent Spring, pg.6)

The most well known chemical’s today, or what Rachel Carson referred to as “Elixirs of Death”, are man made, though chemicals are found in the natural world, these chemicals are atoms, molecules, and arrangements from those natural chemicals that are manipulated in laboratories. They are dangerous because, not being naturally integrated into, or a part of, the environment, have a damaging effect, as most things that are “unnatural” do.

“The origin of these insecticides has a certain ironic significance. Although some of the chemical’s themselves-organic esters of phosphoric acid-had been known for many years, their insecticidal properties remained to be discovered by a German chemist, Gerhard Schrader, in the late 1930’s. Almost immediately the German government recognized the value of these same chemicals as new and devastating weapons in man’s war against his own kind, and the work on them was declared secret. Some became the deadly nerve gases. Others, of allied structure, became insecticides.” (pg.28)

These chemicals were obviously known to be highly toxic, and yet were, and are, still used to kill insects, or pests. But how can we spread a deadly chemical over the earth, expecting for it to harm only one species? Is this logical? I would say not. And yet, these chemicals are in frequent, almost constant use, usually targeted at insects, but destroying the whole earth…

“For the first time in the history of the world, every human being is now subjected to contact with dangerous chemicals, from the moment of conception until death…the synthetic pesticides have been so thoroughly distributed throughout the animate and inanimate world that they occur virtually everywhere... They have been recovered from most of the major river systems and even from streams of groundwater flowing unseen through the earth. Residues of these chemicals linger in soil to which they may have been applied a dozen years before. They have entered and lodged in the bodies of fish, birds, reptiles, and domestic and wild animals so universally…They have been found in fish in remote mountains lakes, in earthworms burrowing in soil, in the eggs of birds-and in man himself.” (pg.16, 17)

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Should be....

2010-06-04T16:23:00.001-04:00

There's so many "should be"'s in life. Yes, I know that was bad grammar. There's things we should be doing, things we should be being, how we should be acting, living, blah blah blah. I finished school, so want to just relax, I mean, really defuse. But I can't, because I should be getting my life together, planning, doing, learning, being productive...its really looking like a 3 day break is all I'm going to have, until our traditional week of fun, and Shanda's of course. But it looks like I'm in a season of work in my life. Many things have been neglected, and many things forgotten. So I suppose- no, I'm determined, that this summer I am going to finish whatever I started, I'm going to continue learning in other areas, and I'm going to develop and become the person that HaShem wants me to be. And not just in my inner self, but how I live my everyday life, what I'm busy about doing, etc etc. Don't get me wrong, I'm going to enjoy myself...I really am. But I'm not going to be complacent...I'm really not.
You see, this past school year, I wanted to challenge myself with the cyber charter school. So I stuck to it. I wanted to quit so many times, but I felt that I couldn't look myself in the eye if I did. Ok, perhaps it wasn't so strong as that, but you get the point.
Anyway, so I did prove to myself that I could do it-I could, I can, and I did. But now its time to prove myself to myself (and others) in other areas. Because I'm growing up. Fast. And I have a feeling that if I don't do it now,(whatever it may be) it will pass me by, and I will regret it. SO...I have to do what I have to do, and I know that even if I don't see the reward at first, it will be worth it.
So, after that relieving rant, I want to say that yes, I've been neglecting my blogs, and I know I've said this before-that that's going to change, etc etc, but this time, I really mean it. Even if its one post a week, I'm going to, because maintenance is important, and I believe that HaShem wants to speak to others through this blog...which will have a new name and look by the end of the month, truly it will.
I will leave you with an inspiring quote, which very few people can live up to (to mimic Lemony Snicket's dark humor)...

"The impossible can be possible....IF YOU'RE AWESOME!!!!!" - Rhino the hampster from the Disney movie Bolt.

Goodbye School,Hello Summer! I think...

2010-05-27T20:22:00.000-04:00

(Press play to listen while you read)(My ultimate favorite summer song, just so you know.)
I have something really BIG to say. Therefore, I am about to use the largest font size, PLUS caps.

HAVE

COMPLETED
A

FULL

YEAR
OF

SCHOOL

OFFICIALLY
TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, and did I mention it would also include bad grammar? Yes, its true, its so surreal to me- I still haven't fully grasped it. It has been a very difficult year at times, and I cannot say I handled it perfectly-very un-perfectly many times. But that's ok! CAUSE IT'S OVER NOW!!! YAY YAY YAY!!!
Now I'm going to give you a list of what I look forward/hope to be doing this summer/spring, because its still spring. Oh, yeah, the "I think" in the post title is because summer is too hot for me, and because its still spring.
Anyway, I got the idea for this from Hannah at Aspire, and it has been going around. So here we go! in no specific order...

Eat our homegrown strawberries at random times

Go To the Beach MANY times

Spend fun time with friends and family

READ

WRITE

And that's all I have so far! Oh, and changing my blog and all! That's coming in June!

Well, I must go, but I do want to write more about this years academic journey in another post.

Blessings!

Another late Young Maiden's Daybook May 26

2010-05-26T10:56:00.000-04:00

Today… Today is May 26, 2010. May 26. I can hardly believe it. Tomorrow is the last day of school. Wow. Its just so surreal.
Outside my window… Sunny, beautiful, willow tree seeds floating about, 81 degrees.
I am thinking… How its hot outside, but I'm glad, because at least its supposed to be. Though it is hotter than its supposed to be.
I am thankful for… The sun.
I am wearing… Light blue long skirt, black shirt.
I am reading… Silent Spring by Rachel Carson. I will be writing an essay today, which when it is graded, I will post on my book blog.
I am creating… a letter, something else which I will share at another time.
One of my favorite things… The other thing which I am creating.
For education this week… Today Algebra exam! Please pray! Also, an essay.Tomorrow, Physical Science exam, and english exam. Then I am done.
A keeper at home skill I am using/learning … planning. I had to plan all my studies according to when I wanted to complete them.
A spiritual lesson I’m learning… trust.
A godly character trait I plan to work on… humility
Scripture I am meditating on… “we pray that you will be continually strengthened with all the power that comes from his glorious might;so that you will be able to persevere and be patient in any situation, joyfully giving thanks to the father for having made you fit to share in the inheritance of his people in the light” collasians 1:11
I am praying for… my parents, the garden, this weekend, and obviously, exams. hee hee
For the rest of the week… When I'm done with school, I'm leaving the house Friday to celebrate for the weekend with a friend. WOOT WOOT!
A picture I’d like to share…

May HE shine on you! Blessings to all!

It's almost miraculous...

2010-05-24T22:05:00.000-04:00

that I have found any time to post today. It turns out that my stringent schedule to complete all my exams this week was a little ruffled by teacher plans. But, b'ezrat HaShem, I will still be able to do it. I've been working out a header for my new blog name and look, but I'm having trouble. Blog design, or anything involving creativity that doesn't involve a camera, an embroidery needle, a keyboard, or a pen, or even a piano, is difficult for me, besides my rare occasional burst of talent. But, nonetheless, I shall have a new header, and etc etc by the end of June, just before the month of my 2 year blogiversary.
It is also almost miraculous that I've received yet another lovely award from my dear blogger friend Katherine Sophia. But I suppose it should be no surprise, because of how generous and sweet she is. She has awarded me the...well, go see it for yourself here at my book blog.

Now that's Epic

2010-05-18T18:22:00.003-04:00

*Click here for a synopsis of what Shavuot is*

Shavuot can be described simply in 7 words. Three important ones, and three not so important ones. :)

Celebration of the Giving of the Torah

What: Biblically, Shavuot is a celebration of the first fruits of the harvest. But today, it is also the big letters above. Oh, Check out Leviticus 23 for the command of Shavuot. We read the book of Ruth, we read the ten commandments and about the event itself, we do no work, and we eat dairy. Check out the site in the link above for more on that.
Where: Mount Sinai, in the second and third temples, in the synagogues, in our homes.
When: According to the scholars, 50 days after the Exodus from Egypt, on Passover. Also, after the counting of the Omer. Also when The Ruach haKodesh (holy Spirit) descended on the talmidim of Yeshua (disciples of Jesus) in the Brit Chadasha (new testament).This year, May 18-20, Sivan 5 and 6, 5770
Who: The Torah was given to Moshe and all the people of Israel. It is said that at that time, all the souls of those who would accept the Torah were there, from their unborn children to me (as an example).
How: With thunder lightning and voices on the mountain :)

CELEBRATE!!!! Its part of the commandment!!! : D
All the holidays commanded in the Torah are amazing and incredibly meaningful and beautiful. But, Shavuot is the day we formally received all those commandments and incredible holidays. The other holidays are BIG DEALS, but Shavuot? The giving of the holy Torah itself? A time when all souls were before G-D? When G-D was visibly present to all the people of Israel? When we received the guidelines for life, living, and human relations, plus so much more? Now that's epic.

I hope all you Torah observers have a lovely Shavuot, and to the rest of you amazing people, have a great week and I will catch up with you on Thursday night!

Observations on Becoming

Full Moon- Working and My Subconscious

Village Wise Woman: The Rose Bush Who Wouldn't Bloom (A Real Life Parable)

Grace Like Rain: dream room

Moments&Memories: Psych

Top Ten Books on my To Be Read (or re-read) list for Winter

Dear Society & Boys,

Truth & Belief

Top 5 Books I Read that were Outside of my Comfort Zone

Miscellany Monday: Purpose and the Phoenix

Top Ten Tuesday: Books I Wish I could Read again for the First Time

A Different Chapter

the Mundane & attempting Authenticity

I have the strangest feeling...hello!

An Official Absence

Today is Tuesday

Life is Sweet

Top Ten Tuesday:Dynamic Duos!

From Evernote:

Top Ten Tuesday:Dynamic Duos!

Thoughts of Spring:Blog Party

Life. is. Sweet. on. March.First

Observations on Becoming~Feb.27

Top Ten Five Tuesday:Movie Adaptations (late)

Miscellany Monday: February 21

From Evernote:

Life is Sweet...

Character Connection:Gertrude Flint

From Evernote:

Character Connection:Gertrude Flint

Top Ten Tuesday:Characters That I'd Name My Children After

From Evernote:

Top Ten Tuesday:Characters That I'd Name My Children After

Experience on Becoming~Jan.31

Observations on Becoming~ Jan.25

Observations on Becoming~ Dec.26

Observations on Becoming~Dec.21

Observations on Becoming~Nov.28

Well lookey here!

Observations on Becoming~ Nov. 7

Testing[ignore]

Light

Observations on Becoming~October 31

Ah! Again!

It's been too long...

Little Notes....please read

Observations on Becoming (late)~September 27

Constantly Swinging

What....is a strange word

"The Next Girl"

Observations on Becoming~ September 19

It really does feel like living...

Observations on Becoming~ September 13 (late)

Grace Like Rain: Interview: Me!

It's the year 5771, well, it's going to be...

Observations on Becoming~ September 5

Yay! Giveaway!

Crazy Beautiful Mess

Observations on Becoming~ August 29

Observations on Becoming~ August 15

Awesome awesome awesome

Grace Like Rain: End of the Summer Blog Hop And Giveaway!

Observations on Becoming!!!- August 8!!!

Character Connection:Thomas (Tommy) Beresford

Top Ten Picks:Favorite Male Literary Character's and Top Ten Favorite Books of all Time

Emily's Cancer Blog: A must read blog

Observations on Becoming~August One

Well, Here I am

(of) HorseFeathers: Get Cash (without a regular job)

Zi-Zi

Observations on Becoming~ July 25

Checking some new features! Hope they prove useful!

Observations on Becoming~ July 19

Top Ten Picks:Favorite Books to Movies

Oh, I forgot to Mention...

Observations on Becoming~July 12

A Rainy Day in July

Laughter is the Best Medicine Day 2

What I have been doing :)

Back to Blogging & Laughter is the Best Medicine!