the Universe in You {astrology}

 {I'm not in the slightest trying to convince anyone. You may comment with your perspective and questions, or you may think it's complete rubbish. You may think I'm mental (fact:I AM). Either way, I'm probably going to pop some bubbles & present some perspective. If you're not ready or willing for either of those things, you should probably press that little 'x' up there. ;} 

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One spring day in 2011, I was surfing the internet & came across a site with detailed descriptions of the astrological signs. It's a vague recollection, but I somehow ended up reading my sign (Scorpio), and I was absolutely astounded by the accuracy of the articulation. It was like everything I'd ever felt,thought, & realized about myself was articulated. It positively spiraled and blossomed, and a few months later I had fallen in love with what has become a transformational & fulfilling passion in my life. The moment of introduction may be vague, but I precisely remember the moment I decided that I would allow this to become a part of me, and trust the path I found myself on.

 "Gd said, 'Let there be lights in the dome of the sky to divide the day from the night; let them be for signs, seasons, days and years; and let them be for lights in the dome of the sky to give light to the earth; and that is how it was.' " ~Genesis !:14-15

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People ask me, "Do you know what the bible says about astrology? Fortune telling is against Gds word." I even get skeptical looks when I so much as mention astrology. Many people have told me darkly, " You know that stuff is no good right? I don't believe in it."  I've even been told, " Don't talk to me about it!" in a panicky way. Quite a few people actually unfollowed me after this post.

It's really quite amusing. I've grown enough to be able to laugh about it all, though it still saddens me a bit. Am I judging their skepticism or perceptions? Not at all! I was skeptical at one point, and there are still things that trigger skepticism within me. At any rate, I'm firm in what I believe.

What Do I Believe?

A Powerful Essence of Gd Permeates Everything He Created.
in other words
I Believe in the Cosmos

 “Cosmos is a Greek word for the order of the universe. It is, in a way, the opposite of Chaos. It implies the deep interconnectedness of all things. It conveys awe for the intricate and subtle way in which the universe is put together." ~ Carl Sagan

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Astrology is not a set of laws you must obey. Astrology is not a set in stone interpretation of who you are. Astrology is a guide, a map, a useful tool for developing and exploring the potential of your psyche and life. Astrology is systematic,cyclic, and open to each individuals personal interpretation and application. Present but unseen.

It is ESSENCE & ENERGY. 

Astrology is the study and observation of the cosmos {luminaries (sun & moon) & the planets} and how they influence our psyche (mind~heart~spirit~soul) & who we become.

I often tell people when discussing their astrological information, "I'm not going to tell you anything you don't already know. This is all an articulation of what you already know or sense about yourself and your life, or would eventually come to realize."  It's ultimately a tool for self awareness.

Many 'fortune tellers' do use astrology. Many psychologists use astrology. Many practitioners of witchcraft use astrology. Many pagan practitioners use astrology. But it doesn't belong to them. Astrology doesn't belong to anyone. Just like psychology, philosophy, and oh- the air you breathe. 
Astrology, contrary to the impression that many unfortunately have, is not 'magic', is not a religion, and it is not witchcraft or fortune telling. Just like there are different sects of philosophy, psychology, and theology, there are different sects of astrology. 

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 You might think that sounds completely crazy. So does the fact that the moon affects the oceans tides. :) Or it may resonate with you. As I have often expressed to friends & family,  the planets weren't created to just spin up there looking pretty. They must have a purpose, just like all the beautiful & powerful things in our universe that we can't see with the natural eye but that undoubtedly have an affect on us. 

...we're all in this place, spinning in space...

New Moon{Pisces}: Pink Fluffy Clouds, Darts of Disappointment, & IBelieve

Friendships are very important to me. in fact, I even find the word friendship not sufficient for how strongly I feel about them. I consider them relationships. I basically have three types of labels for my interactions whether blood or not.

acquaintance

{a person known to one, but usually not a close friend}

relationship

{a connection or involvement} 

&

family

 {All the underlined words in this post have to do with Pisces moon. And how do I know so well? My moon is in Pisces.}

This is just my perception. When I am attached to someone, I am strongly attached, and I give deeply from myself, in whatever way that can manifest. I am not usually aware of my expectations of reciprocation...until those veiled expectations are disappointed. 

It kind of feels like being on one of those infamous 'pink fluffy clouds' and all of a sudden, I look down and see darts of disappointment shooting upwards and right through my cloud, forcing it to dissolve... 

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This happens much less frequently as I learn to dissolve my expectations before even giving of myself. And asking myself if it's worth it in the first place. And it can be so hard  for me to discern whether it is or not. Because I desire so deeply to have positively intense and lasting connections. Compassionate & Spiritual companionship. Heart to heart, y'know? Moon to moon....

And the worst thing is (to vaguely use the expression, it's definitely not the worst thing)... And the worst thing is, I can't ignore that disappointment,  I can't help feeling hurt when I don't receive what I perceive/feel I'm giving. 

Can I help having those expectations, however small they become? I don't believe I can. Those expectations symbolize my belief in hope. That it can always get better. Sometime it's, "If I see it this way, it'll be better. I'll be more satisfied." Or, " One day they'll realize/grow up/ reciprocate.". And even when I eventually realize that may not be true, I don't let go. I'm already bound. Do I loosen that bind? Absolutely- I can only take so much pain. But it will take something major to break it. 

Am I saying peeps need to love how I do? Give how  I do? Certainly not! But I need to feel like I'm as much a priority for them as they are for me. And that's perfectly fine. That's not something I need to change about myself. It's how I love. I give deeply, I make them a priority, I connect and share. All I'm asking for is peeps who love me back like that. 

In a healthy way. I've tried & tried to get this need for entire reciprocity and  connection met in unhealthy ways-ways that demeaned my dignity, that gave false impressions, that made me feel less, small, belittled. Thankfully, though I can't (and don't want to) change what is a basic need for me, I can change how I go about getting it met, who I connect to, my expectations, and who's worth my love,  

La Luna is our emotions, feelings, receptiveness, connectivity, and inner world, to name a few. Our Moon shows how we comfort and nurture ourselves and others.  There's a quote I've ingrained into my astrology student's minds that explains gives a good idea of the moon. 

"Live by the Sun, Love by the Moon."~ Unknown

   

A New Moon occurs when the Sun & the Moon are right next to each other-conjunct, to use astrological terminology, in the sky. Right now the Sun & Moon are conjunct (next to each other) in Pisces. 

 

This New Moon (fresh, beginnings, [re]birth, renewing, start of a cycle) is occurring in my 7th house(relationships, partnerships,balance between yourself and others,projection). I'm taking this as an opportunity to renew that area of my life. To create fresh intentions, dreamy intentions,  intentions founded on the belief that anything is possible. 

My dreams are possible. My desires can become reality. And even as I create fresh intentions, I'll be releasing (probably for months) all the piles of disappointed illusions&hopes. But I'll continue to believe, to hope, to trust in possibilities. Because that's the motto of Pisces. 

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I Believe 

Full Moon in Leo~ Identity& Self Expression {me,myself,and I}

{I'm currently working on a post talking about the what, how, and why of astrology for me. Until then...}

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Flickr is amazing. I was really hoping to find a photo of the Full Moon in Leo aka our current Full Moon. I wasn't meeting with any success, until somehow, I came across this photo and somehow, noticed it had been taken 3 hours ago. In Moscow. How lovely is that? :) The Full Moon isn't exact until tonight though (EDT).

Leo (the Lion) is ruled by the Sun, therefore it's all about the SELF- the pros and the cons of that. Self Expression, Self Love, Self Purpose, Self Interest, sharing of the Self. The Sun is our core, personality, essence, powerhouse. Just like the literal sun shines and gives us light and that light invests into growth (integration), we each have our own essence,powerhouse,and light within us."Light to the world", anyone? :)

So, with this Full(culmination,illumination,realizations,wholeness,completion)  

Moon (feelings,inner selves, cycles) in  

Leo (expressive,fire,playful, dramatic, integration of personal identity), there's quite a powerful energy of illumination going on. :) 

For me, this energy is going on in my 1st house (identity, appearance,the mask you wear with others,how you appear to them, and your personal perspective). 

You could say that I kinda appear to be a Leo. I have big teeth aka a flashing smile, big hair with natural blonde highlights, and honestly, a big forehead. ;) Ironically, those are the three physical features that have drawn the most attention throughout my entire life. And they're the physical traits Leo's are famous for-especially the hair. :)

I smile a lot (I've even been called "Smiley" -_-), and I appear to others to possess firm self confidence (looks can be deceiving) and openness. Last year when I attended my first ever concert with a dear fried of mine, she pointed out the fact (others have noticed) that I can look prideful and arrogant, as if I'm looking down on everyone else (we both agreed that I'm not actually doing that :p).
In other words, I appear to posses the positive and negative traits of the sign of Leo. I haven't accepted that decided if I really do or not... ;) Though I must admit, my underlying reputation for bossiness...not so deceiving. :p

It's still not really clear to me what this Full Moon will bring me...I've curled my infamous hair because I really wanted to (styling hair= Leo 1st house) though I couldn't do it all because I have so much it'd take forever... Leo's can be impatient, and the 1st house is about our appearance, therefore I'm impatient about my appearance. That explains soooo much...you have no idea.

I've just realized I've unintentionally spent a whole post talking about myself....at least it's appropriately titled, and I can blame it on the moon! ;) 

I'm feeling self confident, like I'm owning myself, and ready for dramatic illumination- positive please!

Where is drama&illumination (positive or negative) arising in your life? How are you feeling? Sunny? Selfish? Awesome? Where's the Fullness taking place? I'd love for you to share (whether or not you're interested in astrology)!!

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p.s- I have a feeling I'll be sharing how I've been enlightened sometime later this week...would you like to find out where this energy is activating in your life? Let me know in the comments... :)